“There’s not one person on Earth who’s here for the same reason as you:
Finding and celebrating YOURSELF.”
HRV Score: 49
Relative Balance: 1 (sympathetic) - Compared to my personal baseline my sympathetic activity was abnormally high. To avoid over training or over stressing it was suggested that I prioritize rest today. Suggest activities were breathing work, walking and light mobility work.
Sleep: 7h 34min
Overall mood: Woke up at 4:30a and couldn’t fall back asleep. Then was really annoyed with such a low HRV score. However, my workout for the day fell in line with suggested actives so it was all good.
Core Power Yoga:
Yoga: 60min C2 Class.
Average HR: 108
Gym:
Warm Up Hike: South Island, NZ: 6%
20min
1.31mi
Ave HR 102
EG: 594ft
Stability Circuit:
I do each exorcise back to back with no rest until the circuit is completed. I went for three rounds today
60min
Average HR: 95
REACH-BACKS - 15/SIDE
2. CLAM SHELLS - 15/SIDE
3. PRONE COBRA - 30SEC UP/30 SEC REST X4
4. HIP EXTENSIONS - 20 W/10 SEC HOLD AT TOP
5. SEATED TUMMY VACUUM’S - 25 BREATHS
6. PRONE PLANK - 60/90/120 SECONDS
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“Know what you want and try to go beyond your own expectations”
The Corner of 8th & Insanity: The corner of 8th and insanity is really just conversations with myself working on self love. Focusing on my life’s next chapter really. I’m not really sure the destination yet, but what I realized is that as long as I enjoy the day to day, it really doesn’t matter. I have joined a local yoga studio here and plan on completing their teacher training this spring along with training for a marathon in June. Again, who knows. But…Who cares? I read a lot. I am sure that some posts here will just be note keeping, others study notes and probably a lot of just talking to myself. Because…fuck it, why not?
I am reading As Within, So Without By Karen Neverland. So far I find it to be fantastic and has made me reflect upon my life more so than much of what I have read. Well, that isn’t true but I think it uncovered itself in my path for a reason. Perhaps it was just the right time to read it? Ehh
I love this idea that the ego is a serpent. And once I master it, I can wear it around my neck. A Hinduism belief. What is the ego. Thing is, the ego isn’t necessarily bad. It doesn’t view things as right or wrong. It has no moral compass. Its just in survival mode. Always. Survival or non-survival... All that we can do to control it, is love thyself with unconditional acceptance. By doing you can listen to it and your true self can decide if you want to listen to it. It has plenty of names… self hate, stress, anger, worry, control, approval, self doubt. The list goes one. The ego is all those voices in your head telling yourself to take the safe route. The easy route. It’s no wonder you have failed to commit to almost everything in your life. Maybe not everything but everything at the same time. I’m talking unwavering commitment. That faith. Fucking commit. Self hate though. Self hate is that voice of doubt. That cycle. Doubting your ability. Doubting your success. Doubting.. doubting… Take the damn leap. Let it go and be present!
“The problem I see with humanity today is we don’t truly know ourselves anymore. We have the nine to five job, we have the house, the children, the bills, the television, the hobbies, and the errands that we run every single day, and we eventually begin to believe that this who we are.”
Were going to train your ego like a dog. Your ego, wants to make you happy so it seeks approval. What you feed your ego will ultimately decide how this relationship will work moving forward. Luckily for you, it may only take a few minor adjustments and listening. Listen to your ego. I said, “Listen. That doesn’t mean act.” The ego will present it’d ideas but it is up to you how and if you will use your ego’s advice. Your ego attaches to these labels and ideas and when you listen to it, it grows. You have rewarded your ego for it’s idea. If you should choose not to listen to your ego, it will learn that, that idea was not in favor and will stop presenting it in the future. Free yourself of these labels. Why label yourself when you can be infinite? You can be and do anything.
“Each of us is something of a schizophrenic personality, tragically divided against ourselvs”
Your ego clings to rationale and creates these stories that justify the poor decisions you have made. Not even poor, but fucking pathetic, boring and safe. You know your real self. You know deep down you are special, you have something special, a gift. You lack the commitment and you care what other people think of you. You walk the line, sometimes reaching your leg way out there barely letting those toes touch on the other side. The fact that the majority of your life, you have had different interests than most the people that surrounded you is the only reason you can say that a sliver of you doesn’t give a fuck what people think. You need to fucking jump. Take that fucking quantum mother fucking leap and jump with two feet. Ego. I am not your ego. I am that self that is telling you that you have let your ego hijack your entire fucking life and enough is enough. Fuck the facts, fuck the odds, just jump. And do it for you. You are no longer sharing these blog posts. Nobody is going to read them, so it doesn’t fucking matter. You might as well let it all out.