The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume XVII

Being divinely inspired and intuitively led in the moment into right action based on receptivity, connection, fluidity, awareness, compassion, full surrender and presence - works better for me than following a script of performative spirituality and doing “the right” thing.

MONDAY
8.26.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: SPIN - PETIT (TRAINER ROAD 60M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Here’s the deal man. Things dont always happen how you plan them out. The lesson in that is to keep an open mind. Embrace the positive aspects and possible purpose/lessons in each. Because…why the fuck not? What else you gonna do!?

Believe this dude, you manifest more by letting go than you do by holding on.


Life is energy. Pure creative energy.

TUESDAY
8.27.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: GYM - RUN - TRINITY MTNS (75m)
ASANA: CPY C2 - KELLY (GRAND - 60m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I really enjoy yoga classes I struggle in, which is primarily a lot of the C2 classes. They have a way at getting at the deepest core muscles and wear out every muscle in my legs almost to the point of exhaustion. Today’s class was taught by Kelly and we were working towards Eight Angle Pose, Astavakrasana, so the majority of the class we were trying to open up and loosen our hamstrings. I was able to sorta get both sides, definitely stronger with my legs out to my right. Neither of which could I full extend my legs, but it was an awesome challenge and something to work on. One things she said that really resonated was, “Can you be a little more patient? A little more patient with yourself. What are you telling yourself? Can you take smaller steps towards a bigger idea?” I often feel like I have to get it all, and get it right away. I was so happy to hear that.

Dude, your path is being cleared right now. All of the blocks are being removed, You know it, you can feel it. It is on wards and upwards from here. The acceleration is unstoppable. Feel it man. Fucking feel that! The New moon is coming in a few days. Everything is aligning. As those blockages dissipate, you are and will continue to see everything and everyone with greater clarity. You may have been questioning reality, your life, purpose, you know the shit roams in your head. Trust man. Its here.. Feel that gut and how exciting it is. Just stay consistent and keep doing what YOU ARE DOING. Why? Because the thing is, this has been years in the making. This is what you have been working towards… TRUST.



WEDNESDAY
8.28.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: RIDE - Leb Hills MTB (1h24m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Yo man. Keep that head up and eyes forward. As you can see, you’ve never been given something, been given more than you can handle. You would’ve peeled over and croaked by now if you had. Know what Im sayin’!? It is time to forgive. Forgiveness is freedom. Forgiveness is power. Take yo motha fuckin power back man. Forgive yourself for everything. Yesterday is gone, Even last minute is gone. In that, you must believe that everything, every situation is temporary. Both the good and bad… This should encourage you during the rougher waters and remind you be fully present and enjoy the calmer seas! Believe that every minute, every second is a rebirth and you are responsible for what you hold in your mental and emotional space. YOU. I love you, man. I ma here for you when you are ready. Always and forever. Infinite Love and gratitude…


THURSDAY
8.29.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: Spin - Mont Gosford -1 (Trainer Road 1h15m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I think I realized a lot this morning in meditation. Especially in thinking about my kids, especially my son. I’ve seen the way he acts and behaves and I can only image he is carrying my burdens. I am no stranger to his thoughts, and feelings. I feel responsible for the fucked up shit going on in his head because I have not healed it within myself. I think that we as humans carry the weight of our parents. When we become aware of their traumas, and what they carry, then realize it in ourselves, it makes sense then that would be passed down to our children as well through various control dramas. So perhaps my purpose is to heal myself, and to show him how to heal so that he doesn’t carry the weight of his father, his grandfathers, his ancestors. Perhaps he is my purpose. I am not my father. I am not his mistakes. I am not my mother, nor her mistakes. But I am both my mother and my father. I get it now. Or I get what I get, right now. Fucking hell this ain’t easy.

Man, chill the fuck out. All of the disappointments, challenges, struggles, will all make sense soon. I know you can feel it coming. Its right around the corner and its going to come fast. You will be thankful you didn’t run. You have incredible energy and its felt by those who meet you. When you stand up and take action, it motivates those around you. While you may not realize it, you are inspiring others. Give it your all.


Wild, huh, Nick, how the entirety of living deliberately can be summed up in just three words?
Thoughts become things.
Of course, beliefs are important too, but your thoughts can change what you believe.
And words are important, they’re your thoughts that will become things the soonest.
And taking action is absolutely critical, because it alone connects the dots.

— Spread the word, The Universe.

And the day has come, when the risk to remain tight in a bud is so much more painful than the risk it is taking to blossom.

FRIDAY
8.30.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
SAMTOSA - SHANG RI-LA MEDICINE MUSIC
HARMONY PARK - GENEVA, MN
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Man… Everything you have been putting your energy into is picking up speed. You know what that means,.. the momentum is building. Pay attention to the small victories. As you your gratitude grows, the wins will mount and continue to build in size. Listen man, you have worked for them. Every single one of them. You deserve it. Come back and talk to man. I know you have a lot to spill out. I love you.


Knowing when I need to rest shows a huge amount of understanding of myself, respect for my body, and allows my practice to support me continually.

SATURDAY
8.31.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
ASANA: GYM - RUN (AEROBIC - 60M)
SAMTOSA - SHANG RI-LA MEDICINE MUSIC
HARMONY PARK - GENEVA, MN
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I know there have been tough times. But there you haven’t been thrown anything you haven’t been able to handle. I am proud of you for not giving up. Some how in even the darkest of times you have been able to shine bright with optimism. You;ll see soon it was worth it. You are resilient man. A true example set. Stay true. I love you.


Forgiveness is the key that unlocks the door of resentment and the handcuffs of hatred. It is a power that breaks the chains of bitterness and the shackles of selfishness.
— Corrie Ten Boom

SUNDAY
9.1.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
ASANA: REST DAY
SAMTOSA - SHANG RI-LA MEDICINE MUSIC
HARMONY PARK - GENEVA, MN
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Its a new month man. Believe in the good things coming. I know sometimes you feel unworthy, not quite good enough. But remember you have always been enough, exactly how you are. You are where you are supposed to be at exactly the right time. Just believe things are beginning to unfold, unfold way they are supposed to. It feels good doesn’t it? Overcoming that fear and doubt. They ain’t got nothin over you man. You know it. I believe in you!

The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume XVI


I choose to be patient. I choose to trust the process. Everything I have visualized, intended, prayed about, and worked on is in the process of manifesting. I will remain centered and at peace. I will be strong and continue to believe.

MONDAY
8.19.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: Spin - bays (trainer road 60m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Man… Don’t run. Don’t run away from the heavy emotions you are feeling. Give the pain the space it needs to breathe and let it go.. It’s heavy. I know it, you know it. Sit with it. Play with it. And let it go.


I was born for this game. My heart is that of a Lion.

TUESDAY
8.20.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: Cpy c1 - Janet Ha (60m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Honestly was a bit bummed this morning when the storms rolled in. I wanted to ride tonight. I made peace with it though and knew I needed a hot room so I made my way to CPY for a C1 class at 1:30. I had never taken a class by Janet before. I couldn’t tell if she was a newer teacher or had been teaching for a long time because she was so confident in her speaking. There were just a couple things missed that I thought were pretty important. Particularly mentioning Drishti, or focal point during balance postures and unlocking our front knee in Triangle,Utthita Trikonasana. With that said, I could’ve been off in my own world and totally missed hearing her. So I am not really sure. Her intention for the class was Judgement. Fucking hell, that’s what I needed to hear. Not only judgement, but unfair judgement of self. On top of that her core song, by Sam Cooke….FUCK YEA!

You have been experiencing a lot, especially as of recently. I know you want to know why, I know you can’t stop thinking about it. The thing is, and again you already know this, but shit ain’t fun in the comfort zone. You’re being given the chance to be uncomfortable again, and again so take it. You have the opportunity to grow beyond what you even think is possible. Its transformational man! Go with it… Dude, listen to me! … Your holding it all in your heart. Let it go. There is zero reason to regret anything you’ve done in life. Every single thing, every decision you’ve made, was for a reason, and serves you a purpose. Even you biggest disappointments, failures, and set backs. Remember dude, and I know you know what I am about to say… tough times, failures, are blessings in disguise. Keep that positive mindset I know you have, learn, grow, fucking grow so more and keep on learnin…keep on keepin on!



WEDNESDAY
8.21.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
PRANAYAMA: KAMBO (45M)
ASANA: Ride - Leb Hills MTB (1h16m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Man, its time to show up, step and give it your all. You are in the process of mastery. This is that pivotal moment in time that you will always remember. Let that sink in. You know it be true. Listen to it. Make your move.



THURSDAY
8.22.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
Isvara Pranidhana - Infrared Sauana (45m - Blue Lite - 158 Degrees)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Woke up with a bit of a sore throat. Decided to take it easy and pound water. Drank about 4L of water and rested.

It so funny when you surprise yourself. It will continue to happen as you remain in alignment with you are and most definitely who you intend to be. As you grow and learn to ignore your fears, they will shatter. Keep moving, forward, side to side, and every once in a while even backwards. Keep moving man, with faith and confidence. Speak and put yourself out there. That is part of self love. What you are coming to realize is that when you glow from the inside, people recognize. Everything, and I mean everything begins with you and how you feel about yourself.


Nature dose not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.


FRIDAY
8.23.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: Isvara Pranidhana (rest day)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I got a lot of sleep the last two nights. Although waking up this morning, my sinus was draining and felt a little bit of ache in my knees so decided to bail on riding in Duluth today which is a bummer. But considering I have a marathon coming up on Sept 7th, I didn’t feel like pushing it was the best idea. I may head to a yoga sesh at noon. I think the sweat may be good, but I will see how I feel by then.

Where ever you are feeling the pressure, there is an opportunity for YOU to transform. Its an opportunity for you to show up and act, behave differently. You know exactly what you need to do and where you need to do it. It may not be easy. But it’s all in your state of mind. Let others believe how hard things need to be. Do your thing man. It’s never as difficult as they say. So why even listen? Take that quantum leap. Trust what you are doing, what you are planning. It’s going to take you where you ultimately want to be.


Gratitude is soul alchemy.
SATURDAY
8.24.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
Isvara Pranidhana - Infrared Sauana (45m -Bl/GRN Lite-158 Degrees
ASANA: CPY C1 - Emily BE (MPLS NE 60m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Checked out a C1 class today at NE. It was a great class, new experience. I haven’t taken any classes at the NE studio. It was good, not sure it is a favorite. The intention Emily set for us was growth. I enjoyed hearing her speak on growth and challenge as we moved from pose to pose. It was bit mechanical, but very well said.

Dude, its gonna work out. Change, evolution, it’s all in the process of happening. Everything you have been stressing about won’t even matter soon, man. And you know it. I know you know it. I feel it, you feel it. You got this. Everything will work out. Changes are catching up and the long awaited is coming. Just embrace it.


SUNDAY
8.25.19

You came with nothing and you will leave with nothing. What then is yours?

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: Ride - Piedmont, Duluth MTB (2h1m)
ASANA: Ride - spirit mtn, duluth -dh MTB (1h50m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Enjoy it today man. Relax and smile as much as you possibly can. You don’t have to solve your whole life over night. And, once again, you don’t need to feel shame for who or where you are. One step in front of the other. That’s all it takes. One more step, in that direction. One more.


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume XV

I’m going to use everything that shows up in my life, even the most challenging stuff, to help me grow and further my ability to love.

MONDAY
8.12.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Listen to it man. Listen to your intuition and what you have been feeling. You have been coming up with so many solutions to what you’ve been looking for. Hold on tight, trust, and believe. The answers and clarity are coming. I love you.


TUESDAY
8.13.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: SPIN - STEVENS (TRAINER ROAD - 60M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, everything will be okay. Fear is your ego, and fears will try to convince you that your world is crashing down, but you know that is not true. Hind sight is 20/20, so just remember when you look back at all of this you will realize the why. It will all make sense.


Every day passes whether you participate or not.

WEDNESDAY
8.14.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: SPIN - (TRAINER ROAD: PETTIT - 60M)
Asana: gym - strength circuit 3x
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Man, it isnt always going to seem like it, but contentment is knowing and trusting that everything is happening how it needs to. Everything that you have learned has put you in an incredible spot. You know man, listen to Nahko..The good things are coming! I love you man. Im here for you when you want to talk. You know it.


Full Moon Affirmation: (Full Moon in Aquarius) Tonight I accept that things are falling into place for me. I am happy. I am at peace. I am clam. Everything is working out for me.

I am blossoming into my fullness like the moon I release all negativity from my life. I know that I am enough. I am spreading good, positive energy every where I go.

THURSDAY
8.15.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: spin - trainer road (rainbow 1h28m)
asana: gym - stability circuit 3x
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

The full moon is opening portals to new realms not yet imagined and you are courageously stepping into your new life. The gateway is open and your wildest dreams are coming to life. You can feel it. Welcome the new deep relationships, welcome the new opportunities. Let go of the resistance, and embrace the changes that are unfolding. You are brave, creative and unstoppable. You are light. You are love. You are blessed.

Dudeee, it is getting wild out there for you. Don’t forget how much you are loved, respected and blessed you are. Quit listening to em, its only as hard as you make it. You are growing fast. Incredibly fast. How are diamonds created? You know it….Pressure baby. I love you.


Perform your duty and abandon all attachment to success or failure. Such evenness of mind is called yoga.

FRIDAY
8.16.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: gym - walk (trinity Mtns 30m)
ASANA: YOGA - CPY: c2 - Victoria (60m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I went to the gym initially to get in a run, but had a tough time keeping my heart rate down so decided to walk instead. I walked to warm up, got in a little under 500ft of elevation.

Yoga today was amazing. It’s been too long since I’ve been to class at CPY. The heated room just absolutely makes it. I haven’t been to class since early June, so it was great to get back in there. I have enjoyed every one of Victoria classes thoroughly. Her cues, demo’s are always on point. While practicing I do my best so sent the intention of light and love. However, Victoria was stressing the point of remaining present. In continuing that discussion throughout class, she asked where our mind goes in time of difficulty, stress, etc. It is an act of defiance, resistance this day in age to remain present and to focus the mind on one thing. I can do that. :)

I know its difficult, but you have been doing a pretty good job at quietly processing everything that has been happening lately. Now, more than ever you need a plan. Take some time, dude, you have to make the time to sit down and plan out your next steps based on what feels right to you. The energy inside of you, the power you have increases and only becomes that much more powerful when it…you are directed and drivin’ by your why.


I am so fucking committed to my growth that i can say no without guilt and yes without an ounce of fucking fear.

 SATURDAY
8.17.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: MTB RIDE - Murphy Hanerhan Single Track (1h30m)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Man…I know it. You can try and go back to sleep. I know some days you want to so bad. But it won’t ever work. The nightmares get worse. The pain gets worse. It will escalate, and continue to invite you to wake up. So just let that shit go. I know you want to. You are way too grateful for this life not to be, not to live it how you want to. To be who you are supposed to be.

All of the happiness and joy you are experiencing is so readily available to you, right now, where you are. That smile on your face all morning man, I know. I felt it too. Let go of what you think needs to change in order to feel this ever flowing bliss continually. Give your time, energy, and attention to all the good in your life…Every bit of that goodness that already exists will continue to grow into what you’ve wanted your entire life. Trust that man. Trust in the good things. Trust is the good things coming. Trust man, I love you. Again, I am here when you are ready to talk. Always and forever.


SUNDAY
8.18.19

You have spent much time acquainting yourself with the monsters inside. Let go of trying to slay them in the outer world. You cannot. All of the darkness in the world, stems from your heart. It is there, in your heart, where your work must be done.

You have spent much time acquainting yourself with the monsters inside. Let go of trying to slay them in the outer world. You cannot. All of the darkness in the world, stems from your heart. It is there, in your heart, where your work must be done.

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: GYM RUN - TRINITY MOUNTAINS 2% (75MIN - AEROBIC)
ASANA: YOGA HOME PRACTICE - TRAUMA RELEASE FLOW
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Mental strength man. Your perspective shapes your reality, it is everything. You aren’t always able to control your enviorment, or even the people in it. However, your ability to control how you look at situations, how you let it affect you, is becoming better and better. Give thanks for the great things in your life. There are so many. Dude, remember, that with every test your abilities are only improving and becoming stronger. Stay positive. Stay purpose driven. You got this man. I love you. I love you. I love you.


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume XIV

Enthusiasm is the least expensive and most beneficial cosmetic in the world.

MONDAY
8.5.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: YOGA HOME PRACTICE
ASANA: RIDE - WASHINGTON +2 (TRAINER ROAD 60M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, you are seeing it. it’s all becoming more clear. If it wasn’t for all of your hurtles, road blocks and break downs, you wouldn’t be here…where you are today. I realize it it has been an emotional roller coaster, but it has shown you how strong you really are. As your vision of the future becomes more clear, your optimism and excitement will build. Trust that man. Fucking believe it!


TUESDAY
8.6.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: GYM - AEROBIC RUN - TRINITY MTNS 6% (60M)
ASANA: YOGA HOME PRACTICE
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, listen to me right now. There will be down days, when your thoughts drift. You may feel behind, and even slow. You gotta remember that you are more skilled now than you have ever been. You have invested in learning and know more now that you ever have. You know that this life is a marathon, focus on today, one foot in front of the other. You got it man. You and your best are growing.


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Sadness gives depth. Happiness gives height. Sadness gives roots. Happiness gives branches. Happiness is like a tree going into the sky, and sadness is like the roots going down into the womb of the earth. Both are needed, and the higher a tree goes the deeper it goes, simultaneously. The bigger the tree, the bigger the roots. In fact, it is always in proportion. That’s its balance
— Osho

WEDNESDAY
8.7.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: GYM - STABILITY CIRCUIT 3x (1H10M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

man, you can’t go back. And you know you don’t want to. You are learning to LOVE in your fire. You have awakened, you see everything, everything differently than you used to. The opportunities are abundant. Where you saw fear before, you now see excitement. Isn’t it wild, you know exactly what I am talking about. It hits you every time. As subtle as the ground absorbs the rain from a storm, your mind is absorbing the blessings and lessons from your painful past. Every day, you are growing more and more. Get it man, fucking get it!


THURSDAY
8.8.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: SPINNING - BAYS (TRAINER ROAD 60M)
ASANA: GYM - STRENGTH CIRCUIT 3X (50M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

You’ve always known you were a leader. You try to lead by example and hold yourself accountable rather than placing blame anywhere or with anyone. Isn’t it cool taking ownership of your happiness too? Dude, it took a while, but you have figured out that it is an inside job. Self love and self care have to stay important to you. Keep it a priority man. You have tried giving from an empty cup and you know it dont work worth a shit! Keep at it dude and keep on lovin, lovin yourself… Im here when you want to talk. Remember that. :)


FRIDAY
8.9.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: MTB RIDE - LEB HILLS (1H25M)
ASANA: YOGA - HOME PRACTICE
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Ain’t it cool man? The signs and synchronicities everywhere. Keep yo eyes open to the signs, the next steps will continue to show themselves. Its a growth stage in your life, the light is guiding. I love you man, dont forget that. ever!

 


SATURDAY
8.10.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: GYM - AEROBIC RUN (60M)
ASANA: YOGA HOME PRACTICE
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

One of those weeks man, I get it. Gotta remind you that every twist and turn is a detour in your destination. Each obstacle is a fast track to sharpening and strengthening your skills. Everything serves a purpose, has a lesson, and is an opportunity. Keep on believing dude. I love you.


SUNDAY
8.11.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: GYM - STRENGTH CIRCUIT 3X (55M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

DUDE! You are shining bright today. You get it. You understand what is possible and what you are worth, what you deserve. Commitment is key, and you know it. Keep it going. Keep on smiling. Keep on having fun! The rest will fall into place WITHOUT a worry brotha! I love you!


The Samadhi Chronicles Volume XIII

MONDAY
7.28.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)


TUESDAY
7.29.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)


WEDNESDAY
7.30.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)


THURSDAY
8.1.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)


FRIDAY
8.2.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: Spin - Bald Knob (Trainer Road)
ASANA: Yoga - Home Practice
ASANA: GYM - Aerobic Run (30min)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)

 


SATURDAY
8.3.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: MTB Ride - Battle Creek (1h45m)
ASANA: Yoga Home Practice
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)


SUNDAY
8.4.19

DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume XIII

MONDAY
7.22.19


ASANA: Hike - Jasper National Park


TUESDAY
7.23.19



ASANA: Hike - Jasper National Park


WEDNESDAY
7.24.19



ASANA: Hike - Yoho National Park
Twin Falls - Yoho Valley Loop



THURSDAY
7.25.19


ASANA: Hike - Banff National Park
Lake Louise


FRIDAY
7.26.19



ASANA: Hike - Glacier National Park
Iceberg Lake


SATURDAY
7.27.19


ASANA: Rest Day / Driving


SUNDAY
7.28.19


DHARANA: GRATITUDE PRACTICE & HEART CENTER FOCUS (AM 15M)
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (AM 15M)
PRATYAHARA: ECMP (AM: 45M)
ASANA: REST DAY
PRANAYAMA: BREATHING PRACTICE WH (PM 15M)




The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume XII

MONDAY
7.15.19



ASANA: Hike - The Enchantments
(Okanogan-Wenatchee National Forest)


TUESDAY
7.16.19



ASANA: Olympic National Park
Pacific Coast South Trail


WEDNESDAY
7.17.19


ASANA: Hike - Olympic National Park
Hoh River Valley Trail


THURSDAY
7.18.19


ASANA: Ride - Whistler Bike Park


FRIDAY
7.19.19


ASANA: Ride - Squamish/Whistler
Into the Mystic / Lord of the Squirrels


SATURDAY
7.20.19


ASANA: Ride - Whistler Bike Park


SUNDAY
7.21.19


ASANA: HIKE - Whistler / Squamish
Brandywine Falls Trail Loop


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume XI

MONDAY
7.8.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Spin - Andrews (TrainerRoad)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity


TUESDAY
7.9.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Spin - Kaiser +2 (TrainerRoad)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity


WEDNESDAY
7.10.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Gym - Run (15m)
Asana: Gym - Strength Circuit 2x
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)



THURSDAY
7.11.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Spin - Collins (TrainerRoad) (75m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity





FRIDAY
7.12.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: 
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity






SATURDAY
7.13.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: REST DAY
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity









SUNDAY
7.14.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Hike -
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I am still learning to live in my fire..

The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume X

MONDAY
7.1.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Spin - Beech (TrainerRoad)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude…do your best to make sure that every single person you meet this week has a better day because they saw you, they spoke with you. The more joy for others the more for you. Be. The. Light….


TUESDAY
7.2.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: 
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

The only way you are going to change your life is by changing your energy. You have to change the electromagnetic field you are broadcasting. You know exactly what that means. To change your state of being, all you have to do is change how you think, and as a result how you feel.

What are emotions man? They are energy in motion! Break the addiction to the lower survival emotions. Your body wants to experience physical reality within its senses. in order to embrace an emotion. Thats the chemical dependency at work. Your goal is to create a reality from a world beyond your sense that’s defined not by your body as the mind, but as YOU as the mind. You are already aware of your shit. Its pretty obvious at this point. Get past and over those low vibrational feelings and habits man. Its not really that hard, and you know it. Every time you catch yourself, labor man, labor! to get yourself back to the present moment and chill. Be greater than the program. Your will IS GREATER than the program and again, you KNOW it. Keep stepping into the unknown, surrender and embrace…discover that love and compassion. KEEP AT IT.


WEDNESDAY
7.3.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Spin - Arrow (TrainerRoad)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)



THURSDAY
7.4.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Gym - Stability Circuit 3X
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)



FRIDAY
7.5.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Spin - Arrow (TrainerRoad)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)



SATURDAY
7.6.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Gym - Strength Circuit 3X
Asana: Ride - Leb Hills (MTB)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)



SUNDAY
7.7.19


Dharana: Gratitude Practice & Heart Center Focus (AM 15m)
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (AM 15m)
Pratyahara: ECMP (AM: 45m)
Asana: Hike - White Water State Park
Pranayama: Breathing Practice WH (PM 15m)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

This is probably the time more than ever I need to meet with you every day. Im sorry I’ve missed you the last week or so.


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume IX

No more “supposed to’s,” OK, Nick ?
You’re not supposed to work harder, look better, sleep less, sell more, run faster, talk slower, be happier, stay longer, leave earlier, cook, clean, negotiate, settle, start, stop, move, try, win, shake, rattle or roll.
Other people made all that up.
I love you the way you are,
— The Universe

MONDAY
6.24.19
Breathing Practice WH (AM)
Energy Center Meditation Practice (AM)
GYM: RUN (15MIN)
GYM: Stability Circuit 3
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

Prosperity is your birthright man! You hold the key to more abundance.

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

So many people are in status quo style relationships where each person is expected to perform certain situational roles. People don’t realize there are so many amazing unexplored ways to experience love, intimacy, connection, friendship and closeness with birth family as well as chosen family. Ways that do not fit the mainstream mold but are available just by listening to your heart and being open. Don’t be afraid to be the one to recognize an unfulfilling energy dynamic in a relationship and ask, I’m curious if you would be open to exploring another direction in our relationship. Obviously emotional safety is a prerequisite here but there are endless possibilities.

You’re the only one whose judgments of you actually have a real impact on your life.


Harmonypark.com
- ART IS HOW I DECORATE SPACE. MUSIC IS HOW I DECORATE TIME -


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The weekend was pretty damn cool. It was my first experience at a music festival. Project Earth was the name of the festival. Harmony Park sits on 40acres next to Geneva Lake in southern Minnesota. The two main stages are surrounded by a giant grass field, and half circle of vendors along the out perimeter. The ginormous Oak trees towered over the entire property, providing this lush green canopy.

The moment I walked in, I was greeted with hugs and welcomed home. Home…what is home? I have to say, I haven’t been anywhere where I felt so free to just be myself. Not that I really did anything that seemed different or acted different, but that feeling was there. That light, airy, carefree feeling. Everyone was dressed in a mix of tie dye and medieval. It was super cool to see. You could feel the energy everywhere. The love, the happiness, the acceptance of everyone.

The music was wonderful. Incredible really. It was happy. It was energized. So full of love. No matter where in the park I was, I could feel it. Listening, experiencing the music was a new experience for me. I was in limbo between tears and bliss. My body just swayed, moved to the rhythm of the tunes. Medicine music.

There is no real way to describe this place. I had no idea what to expect but it was an experience I won’t ever forget and will definitely not be the last.


TUESDAY
6.25.19
Breathing Practice WH (AM)
EC Meditation Practice (AM)
Asana: Home Practice
Gym: Run (15min)
Gym: Strength Circuit III (3x)
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

You know what you want man. You know what you have to do to get there.


WEDNESDAY
6.26.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
EC Mediation Practice (AM)
Asana: Home Practice (AM)
Ride: Leb Hills (MTB)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)
EC Meditation Practice (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

It’s been an awesome couple of days doing only things that make me happy.

Dude, I get it. You like to think, deep. You value clarity and understanding. Just try not to associate your peace with the why because it will make it difficult to stay present in the moment. Yes, you can grow from a situation when you have learned the lesson. Just know and remember that when the lesson isn’t clear, the answers are coming. Just be patient.


THURSDAY
6.27.19
Pranayama: WH (AM)
Pratyahara: Energy Center Practice (AM)
Asana: Home Practice (AM)
Ride: Spin - Beech (TrainerRoad)
Pranayama: WH (PM)


FRIDAY
6.28.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Meditation Practice: (AM)
Gym: Aerobic Run (30min)
Gym: Strength Circuit 3X
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SATURDAY
6.29.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Meditation Practice: (AM)
Ride: Leb Hills (MTB)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SUNDAY
6.30.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Gym: Aerobic Run (15min)
Gym: Stability Circuit 3X
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity'

Listen man, the victim acts like adversity is bad. To the leader, the warrior, the warrior of light man!… hard times are life’s richest times of growth, opportunity and possibility. It was a rough weekend. You feel as though you failed that test big time. And I suppose you more or less did. Keep wrestling with it man. You are conscious of it. Keep the fuck at it. Sooner or later it will all fall into place… You got this.


The Samadhi Chronicles Volume VIII

Affirmation: Thank you for everything. I have no complaint whatsoever

MONDAY
6.17.19
Breathing Practice WH (AM)
Asana: Home Practice (AM)
Spin: Collins 60MIN (Trainer Road)
Breathing Practice (Post Ride)
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

It was a really good weekend. Yoga, biking, hiking and lounging. I’m glad I’m a Dad. I love my kids, I think they’re the best. Probably just the timing of it, but I wonder what they think of me as Dad. I wonder what they will think about five, ten, twenty years from now when the look back at their childhood. I don’t remember my childhood at all really. Im not sure why. I try to think back and its just blank. I just hope when they look back it was filled with good memories and think of us as good parents. Anyway, I love it. I love being a Dad, a loud house, I like the wild, the crazy. I wouldn’t change this life for anything. What a blessing I’ve been given. I gotta be better, do better, I want to be an example and I want them to see that I did it my way. I stayed true and paved my own path. I just want to show them that anything is possible. I want them to be happy, doing what ever they want to do.

Your higher purpose lies in being a great messenger. To do this, you have to move beyond the very generalized form of preaching you’re prone to and cultivate a more specific brand of teaching. Instead of spreading your messages on a large scale, you need to spread these messages on a smaller level. With the North Node in Gemini, becoming an expert conversationalist is your destiny, allowing you to engage with all sorts of people in regards to all sorts of things. You have to let go of the idea that you can only speak when it’s about something “meaningful.” 


TUESDAY
6.18.19
Breathing Practice WH (AM)
Ride: Lebanon Hills (MTB)
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

Gratitude is the most important piece, the most powerful tool in your tool chest that you’ve been given to get through the human experience. What you resist persists. But what you look at with gratitude ceases to have illusory form.

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Embrace the student. Be the student. You are working on communication…unlocking your social grace. You want to see things more clearly, and to do that you need to connect with others and really understand what is going on around you. Listen. You have the skills to gather facts and observe situations correctly. Key here is be eager for information not necessarily experience. Shift your perspective by realizing that the only way you’ll get what you want is by being logical and observant about your situation. In this lifetime, with a Gemini North Node, you can’t assume anything. Always seek out the facts. This will not only help you see things more clearly but will straighten out the various forms of miscommunication you struggle with. The truth, for you, can no longer be about opinion. It must be about logic.

I’m on this chase to figure it out. What it is, I’m not really sure. I still feel like there is more out there, more up there that I haven’t quite found.



WEDNESDAY
6.19.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Free of attachment, self satisfied & independent, the man of knowledge moves through the world without becoming entangled.

I’m not sure what happened last night or why I even got upset. The house is full of shit. But the reality is I have never really taken care of the house. I’ve looked at it like a rental, and treated it like a rental. Not really caring. Everything has been fixed with a band-aid with the logic that it will be completely fixed or redone when the kids get a little older and understand what it means to take care of things. But in the mean time, the house is in shambles. My house. My kingdom. This house has a lot of sentimental value. I bought it when I was nineteen or twenty and feel like it was my first major investment. I know now that when I see or feel that the kids don’t take care of their things it’s because I haven’t shown them how. And even if I have, it hasn’t been shown by example. I’ve written down a list of things I want to fix and redo in the house. Things I can do on my own, or learn how to do. I’m not sure why I have avoided these things for so long but it about time I start taking care of it, I will start working on it, and start caring for it. When I think of home, I think of a place that is everything healing. I am sorry for my behavior, my outburst last night. It happened in slow motion too, but I couldn’t stop it. I am striving for this simple way of living, simplifying life and with three kids its difficult. They all have their own things, so do Jess and I. I just want the trash and junk thrown away, things that matter kept. I don’t know what to do, other than to get rid of it all when nobody is home, which I know is not the way to do it. Kids, wife, home are the biggest mirrors I am noticing. While the kids may be a mirror, the house is a giant reflection, or metaphor. Maybe that’s it.

This is the battle with Yama’s and Niyama’s.. Brahmacharya, Aparigraha, Saucha, and Santosha.

You struggle when you want life to move quicker, pushing yourself and others to grow faster. Like being in a garden in winter yelling at the roses to bloom. Peace comes when you let go of that aggression - the delusion that we know better than life how it ought to unfold. Breathe Man, Breathe…



THURSDAY
6.20.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Corepower Yoga: C2 #32 - Erin
Yoga: Project Earth
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Even dwelling upon the end result, imagining all the glorious consequences, and feeling the joy you anticipate in advance, dude , still doesn't compare to the power you wield, the dragons you slay, and the legions you command when you act as if your greatest dreams have already come true. You know it be true man!

I didn’t sleep much last night. The two of us took Lu to see the Lightning Thief at the Ordway last night. It was awesome. However, it was off to a rocky start. First, coming home from swim lessons was tough with traffic, and then about half way home Bubba remembered he forgot his bracelet in the men’s bathroom. My first thought was fuck it, its not a big deal. But then I remembered driving all the way back to the pool in CO to get Lu’s necklace, so I immediately thought, we gotta turn around and go get it. Not sure why the two of those connected so quickly, but it did and So we did.

When I got home, I found out my Ayahuasca ceremony next weekend was going to be rescheduled for August because of mishap. I get it, biz owners at odds and separating, lack of communication. Its all good. As excited as I was for this experience, it didn’t affect me whatsoever. I thought to myself, “well, the universe must have a good reason, not the right time for me. It will happen when it is supposed to!”

I hadn’t eaten all day which was completely my fault. I guess I just wish there had been better communication as to what the plan was because I was out of the loop on the itinerary. This is one of those times where I acted on assumption, like there was a plan instead of just sending out a text before swim lessons asking J what our plans were before the show! I thought I had more food in the truck when we got there, but I as mistaken, I left my apple and grapes at home, which is what I really wanted! I know my mood was off, so when I sat down in my seat, I closed my eyes and began to repeat, “I am love, I am light, I spread Love, I spread Light.” I felt my lips start to curl, I could feel the smile starting to form, I could feel the energy start to rise, and when I opened my eyes I even felt the tears start to well. But I was good, I was happy, I was happy as fuck to be there. Another new experience.

Integrity means vulnerability plus boundaries and discernment. Not fear. Look at those primal survival programs without judgment man. Emotional intelligence means not just gaining wisdom about how to process emotions but also seeing the intelligence in raw emotions.

The night didn’t end to well, we ate at Shamrock’s after, the ripple affect of my hangry mood prior to the show obviously continued to ripple. Its pulling me back innnn. ahhh, Ehh, new day tomorrow!

It’s okay to recognize you have normalized dysfunction in relationships. But now that you have, your work is to step out of your denial and fantasies. To accept the reality of how you have been treating yourself.

After not sleeping too much, I was up at 5 and decided to get my ass to the hot room for a C2 class before Project Earth. I wanted to hold on and crush it but I felt so freakin dehydrated about 45min into the class, I had to collapse into child’s pose. I rejoined the class as we were moving into half pigeon. Im glad I made it. I’ve enjoyed everyone of Erin’s classes that Iv’e taken. Today was awesome because she was sitting/standing near the post where I usually put my mat and made it really easy to just listen to her speak and focus on breath. Good class!

Hey Man, you are feelin that Peace! It began when you truly accepted that your life is a product of your own choices.



FRIDAY
6.21.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Yoga: Project Earth
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

I no longer fear the unknown
Cause I know what I am here for
I keep on troddin’ on my own path
Keep on learnin’ from my present and past
I no longer need validation
Cause my story is long and I’m patient
I know I have lessons to learn, keep my eyes open each step I earn
No need for me to feel alone, cause I got a place that I call home
every single road traveled, every single new place
I come back home and they accept me with grace
I know that I was meant to be here and I know that I was born into fear
But I will stand tall in the lions den, cause I know in my heart I am one of them

There are lies in the facets of everything that we see
Telling us to be scared, when all we ever are is free
I’m letting go of the things that don’t serve me no more
I am holy and sacred and righteous and true
I deserve to be here and so do you
I’m in a constant transition constantly changing vision
story never certain there is always a revision to be made
I think about the demons i have slayed, I am not afraid of confrontation in vain
To the people that seek evil, not as peaceful as I look
A warrior at heart so precaution must be took
Trying to give in, to the lessons that will soften, my ways and means are changing cause I talk to spirit often
Tell me to stay sharp, tells me to stay present
Tells me to ignore the fools and focus on ascent
I will starve my ego, I will remain strong
I will make mistakes and I will often be wrong
I’m perfectly imperfect and I’m only here to learn and all the evil on the path gets burned

There are lies in the facets of everything that we see
Telling us to be scared, when all we ever are is free
I’m letting go of the things that don’t serve me no more
I am holy and sacred and righteous and true
I deserve to be here and so do you

The pressure always comes from the outside
Try not to let it in where i reside
This is my heart, my home, my choice, my love, my life, my path, my voice
I feel my heart grow with each step
Stand firm in where the path goes next
I know that where it goes is where i need to be, the more lessons rained down more blessings I see

There are lies in the facets of everything that we see
Telling us to be scared, when all we ever are is free
I’m letting go of the things that don’t serve me no more
I am holy and sacred and righteous and true
I deserve to be here and so do you
— Satsang

SATURDAY
6.22.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Yoga: Project Earth
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SUNDAY
6.23.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Yoga: Project Earth
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume VII

Sometimes life is going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith.

MONDAY
6.11.19

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
REST DAY
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

The emotions running through your body are complex neuro-physiological reactions you have to certain stimuli. They occurs automatically and unconsciously. Feelings, by contrast, are your conscious perception of all those changes happening in your body, where you then assign a value/meaning to the emotion.

The difference between an emotion and a feeling. A life lesson.

Dude, your raw emotions are natural, how you choose to express them is learned. The reason it’s so important to understand that emotions are unconscious and also natural is so that you can let go of judging them. Yet at the same time learn new strategies for emotional expression. Think about a lion approaching you, your body experiences the emotion of fear. It has nothing to do with your ego. It’s an evolutionary phenomena that ensures that our species will survive the environmental challenges. It’s new man, I get it. Your doing great…keep at it. It’s raw, I know..

You are feeling a range of emotions, just know you are right on target with the solstices and what is coming for the eclipses. Allow your body to feel it all. Feel it all man.



I can learn and change in a state of pain and suffering, or I can evolve in a state of joy and inspiration. Love man. LOVE…

TUESDAY
6.12.19

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
RIDE: Spinning - Augusta (25mi)
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I realized this weekend (again) how much I hate alcohol. It tastes like shit and people act like fucking dick bags. What is a dick bag you say? I dont know, a big fucking jerk I guess. I’m to the point, I think I am going to draw a line. I plan on removing myself from any situation I deem as negative or where people are overly boozin. I can only take so much shit from people about the things that interest me, I love and care about.

Dude, quit being such a bitch. Yeah, you man… you are whining right now after a damn good weekend..

The Hard Line. I don’t care about spending time with people that are negative, they drain me. It just isn’t worth it. It’s a waste of my time and they fucking kill my energy, my vibe. Or perhaps I allow them to, either way, I don’t want to be around it. Fuck it.

Man, if want to ramp up the good things in life just compliment other people. Live, think and breathe appreciation & gratitude. It was fun weekend and you know it. So chill the fuck out man.

Your capacity to receive criticism and/or good hearted shit from your male friends is a measure of your capacity to receive masculine energy. They are teacher’s man, like everyone and everything else. They challenge your hesitation, authenticity and mediocrity. Embrace that shit! You need it man, its all a test, a game! Good friends don’t accept nor tolerate mediocrity. Perhaps that is a conversation you need to have. Surround yourself with men that are living at their edge and working towards facing their fears. Dude, it takes strength to be vulnerable and be yourself even when were living at a time where society tells you to keep your guard up. I thought you did an incredible job and living your way and letting the shit roll right off your back dude, seriously.. love yourself a little. Be proud.


Everyone’s a giant, everyone’s powerful, everyone’s trying, everyone’s learning, everyone’s worthy, everyone’s loved, and everyone... loves you.
— The Universe

WEDNESDAY
6.13.19


Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Lebanon Hills (MTB)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

Four things to focus on today….

1. Remember to rest
2. Feel through our emotions
3. Listen to that inner voice
4. Be honest with yourself

The Corner of 8th & insanity

10:10am - My Man! It is time to start shifting your awareness to draw inspiration and guidance from your future self rather than your past self. Huge lesson that needs to be learned and practiced. You already know how draining holding on to the past is. The past is nothing but lessons. All of it, any of it, every bit of the fucking shit that doesn’t serve you, let it all go.. You know the the weight that comes with it, so why hold on?

3:33pm - Balance. Its what I have struggled with in the past. Too much energy flowing out from energy centers out of wack, out of balance. I can see everything pretty clear. Im doing my best to pay attention. opportunities are presenting themselves, it’s a matter of listening to that deep down, which I still feel is a bit cloudy. That ultimate why, purpose. What scares me most is that I am so far down this path, there is no turning back. Maybe shifts in direction, but no reversing it. I’m scared that the choices I have made, the path I have chosen to take is the incorrect one. I don’t think I am doubting myself., just scared as fuck that I have nothing to show for my work. Tangible shit ya know. I was given freedom, that is most certain. Next step is that ultimate financial freedom. I dont have a need for excess, but you know the eight digits. Freedom to travel with the kids on a whim to where ever, whenever. That’s what I want. I want more. I want more out of this life. I want the money to live a life that is so far beyond normal and mediocre. I am so grateful for the everything I have been given thus far. My life is amazing, nothing to scoff at. Everything to be proud of. Where is the balance between desire and contentment? By no means, would I say that I am unhappy. In fact, quite the opposite, I have been living beyond happily. I have been finding so much enjoyment in the little shit. The little every day moments. I can definitely do more, I can be more, I am more. Maybe I am searching for that one thing to dump my heart and soul into. Do I already have it? I feel like something is slapping me in the face and Im just that dense Im not seeing it. Come on, just tell me!

4:44pm - Here is the deal dude… You are in a really good place and everything is unfolding the way it is supposed to…the way it needs to. So take your time. Don’t rush..errr feel the need to rush, remind yourself to get back to present moment. As your perspective continues to grow you will become vividly aware of the new steps you need to take..one foot in front of there other man. Keep getting from the day, have patience and focus! I love you man.


Only the self controlled are free.

THURSDAY
6.14.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RUN: 30MIN
GYM: Strength Circuit 3X
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

I may delay, but time will not…

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

8:00am You’ve always known it man. I know you’ve felt it. That light, that spark buried deep. There is and has always has been something uniquely special about you. No matter the verbal garbage you spit out at times, you always try and find the bright side of things. You know there is light everywhere and in every situation no matter how confusing, frustrating and even uncertain it can be at times. Dude, seriously know your worth. You are a source of positive to all of those around you. I love you man.

10:10am Soul Color: Yellow. Through conversation I was turned on to the subject of astrology. With her help and delving deeper I found that my North Node is in Gemini with my South Node in Sagittarius. I started to google different shit and found almost every theory to be a spot on description of myself and things I am currently working on. Is it a coincidence that these weaknesses were discovered via meditation and my inner voice and not from an outside source previously? Everything leads me back to self. Inside self. My belief in plant medicine, then I think is just a way to delve deeper inside but with assistance. Does that make it a crutch? Or the lessons, thoughts, etc any less valid?

The Gemini Nodal axis takes the raw experiences of life and puts them into a crucible that produces either wisdom or bitterness. By the reflective “cooking” of these Nodes, the raw anger and bitter injustices of life can be distilled, and transmuted into compassionate wisdom. 

You need new experiences man..hahaha! Take on the motto: "Let's do something different!" Different perspectives. You know you do. At times, you may think you've seen and done it all before....but now it's time to do it differently.

You are challenged to be non-judgmental, to widen your perspectives, and to really listen to other people’s truth in order to cultivate empathy and open-minded thinking.
Your karma is around judgement dude and how you've exercised personal freedom. You are blunt and you see it as being honest, but you haven’t considered others’ feelings. Stop doing that. Lol. Challenge yourself to say less than necessary. Your perceptual bias is changing, so that you can see things from many different angles—not an easy thing to do dude! I know your reality may feel shattered at times, and you may wonder where your self-confidence has gone. Certain aspects of your life need to de-construct so it can be re-constructed in a new way. Release old concepts of how it all is, you are breaking new ground. Life is breaking you open to enlarge your heart and widen your perspective; for you are being trained to be a compassionate communicator. You can be the one with new stories to tell that are grounded in personal experience. You're not just the book-smart armchair philosopher any more--you've walked your talk.

Find new ways to slow down, and simply connect with others in a way in which you each share the paradoxes and mysteries of life as well as your own "truths." That truth you came into this life with is in the process of getting much bigger. And as you do this, you'll find that writing, teaching, selling, counseling, and communicating in all forms can bring you great success. With your South Node in philosophic Sagittarius you've got some spiritual gold in your past, and now the trick is to take your old wisdom and new found “Gemini street smarts” and unite them. The world needs to hear what you have to say, that is, as long as you're following a path with heart. Keep checking in with yourself…and me, that your objectivity hasn't run away with your Soul. In your desire to embrace change, be gentle towards those who lead more mundane lives and don't be too quick to judge. You have so much to give!


FRIDAY
6.15.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
SPIN: Andrews (Trainer Road)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

Her movement through the body can be thunderous, destroying whatever energetic attachment is obstructing her free flow.

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

8:00am: I’m finding astrology to be extremely interesting. I feel like it is providing me with not necessarily answers I was looking for, but more like a little reassuring guidance. Through what Kate had emailed me, and what I was and have been seeing through meditation practice, are largely the same. Its balance. Its judgement. Its aligning… living and speaking consciously. Its active and reeeeeally listening to people. It feels shitty to admit that perhaps I haven’t given my life here 110%, I’ve had that one foot out the door, the belief that when this happens or I have this much money, Im moving, going or traveling here. This is a wake up call, a calling to slow down. I have had this feeling of urgency. I need to figure something out or do this or change that. I know I have so much to be grateful, thankful for here where I sit in this very moment. No buts. When the student is ready, the teacher will appear they say. I want to be happy and I want everyone around me to be happy, fuck I want everyone to be happy. How do I do that?

9:11am: Keep at it man. Keep doing this work. Something unique is happening, stirring up just for you! This is sort of that reminder to live in the moment. Slow down. You’ve earned every moment and just remember that you creating the future you desire, so smile! Dude, you have SO MUCH to be thankful for.

10:10am: There is a man that wonders down town asking people for money. He dresses very nice. Clean shoes, comfortable jeans and light north face jacket, usually a baseball cap. I’ve known him for as long as I have worked downtown, going on fifteen years. His stories have changed. I don’t know if he homeless. I don’t know his struggle. I just know that his story, what he tells people when he asks for money changes. Its usually a significant amount of money too. Money for gas, money for a car tow. His stories are elaborate and believable. Before cell phones, he would carry his 5 gallon gas container. His excuse recently, its keys, wallet and phone locked in his car. It doesn’t really matter the story. He has always bothered me. His lies when asking people for money have always bothered me.

A few weeks ago, I saw him out. I usually see him when downtown is at its busiest. Large conventions, concerts or sporting events. I had enough. I approached him as he was telling his story to a woman and all I said was, “Someday you will have to confront every soul you’ve lied and stolen from.” He was upset, he didn’t understand, he hadn’t yet realized I’ve known him for so long or seen what he does and how he does it. As quickly as this interaction took place and was over, shivers ran down my spine and I began to cry. Uncontrollably. I felt so much shame and guilt for ever passing judgement like that upon anyone. I wasn’t talking to him. I was talking to myself. I wish I had never said it. I wish I had never felt like it was my place to say something like that. How fucking awful. I don’t know him or his struggles or what he is fighting for. How could I say that? Why/how could I be this way? If I see him again, I would love the opportunity to apologize. If I don’t get that chance, I hope he finds that unconditional love and forgiveness. I hope I do too.

There isn’t an eraser for the spoken word.

Man, stay on this path. Think about the progress. PROGRESS. The weight you carry through shame and guilt are burdens that create storms of shit within you. As you’ve already noticed, when you release, the storms become a little more familiar. There is an forward and back, side to side, up and down rhythm to healing and as you continue this work, your ability to remain calm and feel your way through the storm will become that much more calm. And remember man, no place for looking down unless your extending your hand to help. Live with an open heart. I love you man. You are a good guy.

12:53pm: A long time ago when I was working at Tradition Valet, I thought it would be cool to use the business as a way of developing leadership skills for younger people. At the time, our staffing list was comprised of primarily college students. The unique thing about valet parking, at least here in minneapolis is that the shift leaders are presented with countless obstacles of varying difficulty almost every shift. There aren’t many jobs out there, a person between 18 and 24, is put in position of power and leadership. I presented this idea and thought it would be cool to hold weekly or monthly seminars or open sessions to discuss different topics such as sex, race, religion, growth, life, you know…nothing off limits but all with the goal in mind to instill growth and learning. My idea was shot down as it took money out of the pockets of the business owners which I understand and can respect.

Fast forward a decade and half and now I own a valet parking company. This idea is coming up in my head again. I see it happening in a couple of ways. One. Holding an open forum on Tuesday nights for two hours. Id be the lead speaker or host and would present a different topic each week that we could discuss. Even invite guest speakers. It would be free, Id hold it in the basement of one our parking garages, people would bring their own lawn chair and we’d just sit, yap, and think. Secondly, I was thinking a hiking club. Held on Saturday or Sunday mornings again with the same idea in mind. It could be consistent and held at Willow River weekly.

Be the one that makes peace, the one that offers friendship, the one that makes a difference in this world.

It would be super cool, if every get together, everyone donated five to ten bucks. And then throughout the life of the is group, when some one had an idea to travel to a place or event, they would present their idea to the group. Where they are going, who they are meeting, what they hope to learn, how they will share it with us/ the group when they return. We then would use the pooled money to pay for that person’s plane ticket or attendance ticket…something like that.


SATURDAY
6.16.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Corepower Yoga: C2 #31 - Aaron (HP)
RIDE: Lebanon Hills (MTB)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SUNDAY
6.17.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RUN: 30MIN
GYM: Strength Circuit 3X
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, you are evolving because your perspective is expanding. Your mind is continuing to open. More and more opportunities to learn and grow. Keep at it man!

800pm: I need to start keeping that note book with me everywhere I go. Its in always in the truck, I have to remember to use it. I have so many idea floating through my head that when I get home it’s hard to remember them all, especially the way I word them in my head. I also need to start writing down the signs I see. There are so many. And they usually inspire a thought at that moment too. I feel like lately, physical practice has been sloppy and less disciplined. I haven’t skipped any workouts per say but I havent taken any rest days really, and not consciously thinking/planning which days are what when it comes to lifting, spinning, yoga, gym, running, hiking, riding. Im spending my time doing what I love, but I need to organize better and clean my diet back up. Its showing in how I feel. The weekend in the harbor I really let it go, but like I’ve said, sometimes I need the shit kicked out of me to get me back on track. I just dont feel optimal right now. I will though, definitely back at it. Feels too good to want to feel like shit ya know.

Corporate Yoga and Mindfulness is an idea I have been thinking about. Yoga teachers dont get paid shit and its sad. After a recent class I was trying to figure out what I thought base pay for some of these classes should be and I was thinking minimum 150/200 bucks. Their time, teaching is so fucking valuable. I thought then where could a teacher stand to make that much and my thought was large organizations. I think you could easily charge a lot to teach large group sessions yoga, meditation and mindfulness for the work place. It would keep employees happier most definitely. And you know everyone would be so much more productive.

When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.

The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume VI

Dude…. conscious living, conscious speaking. Align them. Words don't just hurt once. They wound over and over. Be mindful of them.

MONDAY
6.3.19

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
RIDE: Murhpy Hanrehan MTB
Core Power Yoga: C2 #30 - Adam F
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

This shit is not easy. It isn’t easy seeing everything like this. The long standing ripple that actions cause. They go on and on and on and on. What does it take to right the wrongs of the past? Do I need to leap back and deal with the bits and pieces I remember? Or is a quantum leap upwards and on wards forgetting, and just letting go of the past forging a new path. What if individual people that I have wronged don’t want to talk to me? How do I apologize, how do I make it right? Their forgiveness is out of my control. If they cannot forgive me, how can I forgive myself?

Try to better yourself man, not others. Learn from the past and live in your truth, now.

Dude, let's say you live by a great, abundant, life-giving ocean, though at a very primitive time in history, and so you are hunnnnggggry. Then you're been given a choice: a wading pond full of fish or fishing lessons; enough fish to last you for several weeks, or the skills to tap an unlimited supply. Which would you choose? But, what if learning to fish meant multiple solo attempts to test out your new skills, during which you'd likely feel anxious, uncertain, and a little confused? And that while your Teacher would never be far, doting over you like a mother does a young child, you'd forget this, and sometimes feel all alone. Would you still choose the lessons? 


It can always get more difficult and more challenging. Be grateful for where you are at. Gratitude man, always!

TUESDAY
6.4.19

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
REST DAY
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, why you think you need third party proof to show you that your own practice is helping you? You are your own best proof man.


WEDNESDAY
6.5.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude…soooooo much freedom comes when you do not give a shit what other people say and/or do. Man, seriously… that is taking control of your mood and emotional state. Think about it. I know everyone wants to say easier said than done, but fuck that shit. You aren’t everyone else. The majority believe in mediocrity, even when they say they don’t, you know they settle for it… , you don’t man! Elevate and rise above that shit.


Your suffering will end when you understand why it began. …

THURSDAY
6.6.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Copper Harbor
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


FRIDAY
6.7.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Copper Harbor
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SATURDAY
6.8.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Copper Harbor
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SUNDAY
6.9.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Copper Harbor
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

A man who loses his money gains, at the least, experience, and sometimes, something better.


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume V

D o n ' t g o i n a n d h i d e ;

D o n ' t c o m e o u t a n d s h i n e ;

S t a n d s t i l l i n t h e m i d d l e .

Z H U A N G Z I

Dude, the Tao have it right.. work towards that wholeness, and everything will flock to you without lifting a finger

MONDAY
5.27.19


Breathing Practice WH (AM)
REST DAY
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

As you experience the power you have to attract, you will move on to creating much bigger things.


TUESDAY
5.28.19

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
SPIN: Bondcliff (Trainer Road)
Breathing Practice WH (PM - Post Ride)
Core Power Yoga - C2 #28 - Ellen
Breathing Practice WH (PM)


The Corner of 8th & Insanity

She is your ultimate test. If you cannot be your your free-est, your truest in her presence, whether it be at your lowest or your highest then you have failed not only her, you have failed yourself. She is fully aware of the delusional bullshit. That is the power of the feminine force.

The calling has been so strong. They keep showing up. The signs are everywhere I look, its just trusting and letting go. I’ve been grasping. Not hearing what I want to from people I want to hear it from. It’s pretty simple, live what you feel inside. Stop everything else. Less talking, more doing. Higher awareness is tough as fuck though. Its all fucking new and uncharted waters. It feels raw.

Is it that I need to close my mouth or focus only speaking consciously? It’s like what Sethikus meant when he said master speech. You don’t speak, unless you know exactly what you are fucking saying. That’s pretty right in the face right there. Its about perfecting our speech because of the feelings words evoke and the distorted meaning that can be taken. I enjoyed him speaking about perfection because he also talked about giving it room. Nobody is perfect out there and were going to fuck it up. Master of Speech though. What a thought. I think that if I feel misunderstood because I haven’t come close to learning this lesson. I’ve always felt this way really which means that my word and action aren’t congruent. Or that I have not been able to articulate what and how I feel. My brain has never worked fluidly. It has never worked like everyone elses. Its pathetic the homework I am unable to help the kids with because I don’t remember shit. Each aspect in my life, speech, thought, action must all harmonize and root from my core being, from that place of love. The pieces are coming though I feel like, not to say there is an end but progress perhaps is a better word to use. Master your speech. That is my biggest focus right now. The only forum I should be using to to splat this out is right here.. Now that I think of it, speech and diet. All the other shit, I feel pretty good about.

One thing I know I can do, is take all of the You’s out of my mouth. Because anytime, I say you, I’m really talking about me. .. so replacing the you’s with I’s..

You embarked on a journey together. There us nothing to escape, you are here to master this shit. Obstacles aren’t meant to defeat you in any way. This is impermanent and will pass. All things challenging are preparing, that is what growth is. Think of any game and what you need to do to pass on to the next level. The more you learn the higher you ascend. With each level of ascension, comes new and more challenging lessons. The harder the lessons, the better the reward. Master yourself man, look with in.

So what is that you want? What do you want to create? What do you want next?

I’m not really sure. Maybe thats part of the problem and why I am feeling the way that I am feeling. Spinning my wheels a bit. I hate this stagnant feeling though.


Life is available only in the present moment.
— Thich Nhat Hanh

WEDNESDAY
5.29.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
GYM: Strength Circuit 3X
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Listen man, there are no lost souls out there. The universe knows exactly where every single soul is. Every single one makes it home. There is no need to worry.

I get it, you like challenge. That is how the masculine, how most dudes grow. Challenge accepted ya know. But the feminine is different. She… grows by praise. This falls into the realm of conscious speech man. Don’t hesitate to express your appreciation and gratitude for her and her gifts. And she gives you so many fucking gifts. That praise, that gratitude only and always magnifies her beauty man. Think about that for a second. It doesn’t stop, it never stops. She wants growth, you know it and she knows it. Where your focus goes, your energy flows. Shower that praise in areas that need it most. That is what needs your love. Between a couple of dudes, challenge works. With your Lady, not so much. Praise is the motivator. She will feel your love.


THURSDAY
5.30.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
REST DAY
Breathing Practice WH (PM)


The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I wanna walk in righteousness. But I keep tripping over ditches of my selfishness. I’m glad I started listening Nahko, the man can speak. This roller coaster is overwhelming. I didn’t know how shitty I felt, until I started to wake up feeling good. Every time I mentioned that to people I spoke with, I was referring to how I felt physically. I felt like shit all the time, I was used to it. Fast food, energy drinks and cigarettes. I was physically tight and out of shape, and constantly dehydrated. As within, so without. The physical pain I carried around was a reflection of the emotional pain. In so many of the same ways, just different. As I work on the inside, all of the suppressed shit surfaces that I didnt even realize I was carrying or feeling. I wake up feeling light and amazing and can look in the mirror and smile.

Then there are those moments, those days I feel knocked off my high. My zone. Its a slap in the face. I am a dog chained to a post. Excitement fills me, then I see the squirrel … sprinting only to snap my neck at the end of the leash. It wasn’t long enough. I don’t feel alone as I used to. In fact, I think I’m really starting to feel more connected.

LIAR, Cheater, HYPOCRITE & THIEF

Listen man. You are a great person, with loving intentions. Let go of the mistakes you’ve made in the past. You do not need to fear repeating your mistakes. You are learning the lessons, and becoming aware of every ripple you cause. You are seeing it everywhere you look. Today is a brand new day, the sun is up and shining. It is filled with new and endless possibilities. The only limitations that exist are those that you impose on yourself. You are entering a time in your life what is filled with abundance. Dream bigger and don’t stop. Believe. Trust. Walk your path of righteousness.

Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.
— Mark Twain

Had an extremely interesting conversation with Juliet this morning. She works with individuals that want to embody and work continuously from that higher level of consciousness. Self doubt, self judgement, self criticism, self, self self, are old thought patterns that are limiting my ability to give myself permission. I gave myself permission. I continue to, but need to work at it from a different angle now. I have been though a lot as of recently and I need to breathe. Breathe man, fucking breathe. There are so many moving, hanging pieces in my energy field, that I need to start to integrate. I will give myself permission. I will continue to. That permission will bring clarity. as to what is needed and what will naturally fall away. The over thinking is synonymous with spinning your wheels. I just need to kick it into four wheel for a minute to get some momentum. I’m there man, I got this.

Dude, self love man. What the actual fuck is going on in your head right now. You’d think youda passed out by the spinning of back and forth by now. Chill. Now chill some more. Seriously, laughing out loud. Giving yourself permission and having compassion for yourself go hand in hand. You want to be happy, practice compassion. She said it today, you are already whole. You are already it. Accept it. Accept yourself. This is what you were given, so quit fucking with it by over complicating it. You are whole. Love and accept yourself unconditionally. That self hate chatter bullshit is disconnecting you from the fucking well. That source. That connection. You are so fucking thirsty for it. Let go and drink. Love yourself fucking drunk man. Take the time to assimilate, integrate, create, new man.

Dude, give yourself permission. The law of polarity proves true that what you want is achievable. The universe will show you the way. Claim it. Claim that possibility. Just give in and believe it. What if is so? What if it does? Why not try for the what if? You see where your trading was then, and now. You see, what your eyes are capable of seeing, interpreting and creating. You are over complicating this on so many levels, its laughable.

You’ve had one foot in and one foot out for long enough. Commit and watch what happens. 10,000x is yours. You feel those butterflies. You feel the burning. the energy moving. You’ve always known. Your fingers are lit, your shoulders are pulled back, let fucking go.

Every day I want you to remember how important, unique and gifted you are. Acknowledge your infinite worth. Give thanks but with your heart open too. Anchor in your wholeness and accept what is rightfully yours. Celebrate your essence by allowing yourself to be fully expressed in every area of your life. No shame, no guilt, no self judgement. Embody your greatness man. Relax man, its all gravy.

one last thought for the mornin, dude dont know what you want, because you havent really thought about it. You’ve spent so much time trying to figure “it” out. you create the it, so from now on, right after your breathing practice spend the next ten to fifteen minutes creating in your mind. Should be some fun visualizations. You know what your eyes see when they are closed! Get fuckin wild man. Its honestly really somethin waking up to a whole new life. Breathe.


Got to give, Got to give, Got to give... Just …

FRIDAY
5.31.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Visualization (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C2 #29 - Victoria
Breathing Practice: WH (PY)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, you have it. Do nothing but surrender in the deepest trust and love that you can fathom, and we both know what you have felt. You don’t need to be a do-er, just surrender. Let there be and let go. Desires are aiight, nothing wrong with wanting. But man, release the need for it. That’s the ticket right there. If you have the desire, the intention comes from love, then let all else go and what happens, will happen.

So funny, this is exactly what Victoria was speaking about in class today. Show up, put in the work, be conscious not passive… and let go of the need to taste that fruit. That is what yoga is about. This constant tussle and struggle with out practice, enjoy it man.

I absolutely do. I love, love, love the asana. I love moving, and grooving and sweating like a bitch in heat. If my body could handle more, Id spend even more time in the hot room and on my mat. Class today was awesome and hard. I couldnt believe how much sweat was pouring out of me. Everyone must know all the shit I’m purging through that sweat. I dont understand how people can go in there and not.


Dude, enlightenment doesn’t just hit you and come out of nowhere. You move toward it with your effort. This effort is commonly unrecognizable, because effort and “hard work” are not synonymous. You have to try soft—to be curious and open to whatever the fuck happens. Live in the unknown. Be uncomfortable.

SATURDAY
6.1.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
REST DAY
HIKE
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Going with the flow is as lucrative as grinding. The only difference is how do you want to feel? Don’t be ok with being physically, emotionally or mentally burnt out. What is the point of that?


When we know the truth, we become people who don't have to think much, we become people with wisdom. If we don't know, we have more thinking than wisdom or no wisdom at all. A lot of thinking without wisdom is extreme suffering. - Ajahn Chah

SUNDAY
6.2.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
SPIN: Augusta (TrainerRoad)
Breathing Practice: WH (PR)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The corner of 8th & Insanity

It was a long as day out in the sun. I’m head to bed to enjoy some sweeeeeeeeet dreams.


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume IV

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Nick - The greater the emotional pain, the greater the desire had been to learn the most, fast.
— The Universe

MONDAY
5.20.19


Breathing Practice WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C2 #26 - Ellen
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

You can try to become happy by controlling your environment, or by cultivating quietude/gratitude in your mind…. Work on your mind ;)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Yin and the yang, in relationship. Masculine and feminine forces. Polarity. We need harmonized balance in all the things. You just cant associate masculine with man and feminine with woman. Yes, each sex will posses more than one or the other. And together, they bring balance (not completion), i think thats point of relationship. I think of feminine force is like wild, emotional and crazy (in good way). In relationship, that energy will naturally flow to where the dude is the weakest. But if dude is strong and balanced he can transmute or just direct it, guide it and let it flow. Thats living in love. 

I see that in our marriage big time, at least when I'm able to step back. Where there is no balance, areas we are too like, there is struggle. 

Slow down man, take some time to breathe. Remember the mirror. The pressure that is building, the sense of urgency is unnecessary and taking you out of the present.

The reality of it all, is that its all a test. She is testing your love, your strength. Her energy is flowing to where you are weakest. Do not wish for easier circumstances, ever. I know that you don’t, Im just making that clear. Her moods are a reflection of you and your ability to penetrate her with your love.

You know.. relationship, intimacy, partnership is about serving each other in growth and love. By taking the two, you are able to better serve each other than you can serve yourself. That is what intimacy & vulnerability are about. The best thing you can do for her, the best gift you can give is to open her heart when it is closed. Your heart is open, you know that without a doubt. I’m rollin on the floor laughin, cause you know how true that is right now..

You are man, you are masculine and the ability you have is to reign down and penetrate, with a lightening bolt of love… That flash bang can brighten up those dark moods in ways that the feminine cannot on its own. Get her out of her head, man. She deserves it.

The cycle of the feminine mood is like all cycles, it never ends. Her mood… her heart is either opening in easy moments or closing in the difficult moments. Dance with it. You’ve realized how easy it has been in the past to knock you off your rocker. You are aware of it now, so don’t let it go. Think about it. If life is happening for you, not to you…you can look at every moment with her as a challenge to show your love and dance in the amusement of it all.

In those challenging moments, those challenging times, dance, and remain in that love. Humor, smile and when hearts are open…then open the mouth and speak. Touch her, hold her, kiss her.

She could do this herself, yes, but if she could grow more without you…she wouldn’t need you. Read that again. The cycle will go on and on. The weather changes as often as the moods. I believe you are doing the work that needs to be done. Keep at it. All you can do is continually develop your skills in serving with love.

And remember, by tolerating, by settling, resentment builds towards each other. You don’t need to talk about it. Just move her body with yours. Open her heart, and don’t ever stop.

And hey.. When you’ve tried it all…creative, humorous, and powerful ways of loving there is nothing left to do but relax and let go without any kind of resentment. The skills just may not be there or perhaps she is not willing to receive your gifts. But you will not ever know, until you’ve given it your all.

Give yourself credit for how far you’ve come and what you have accomplished. You are humble and kind, the people that are around you know, understand and realize how passionate you are about your dreams…the love you have to give.. the love you have to share. You have overcome a lot to be where you are at today. Trust that you are on the right path. Your inner self is guiding you exactly where you are supposed be, man Seriously, fucking trust that! ... I love you man. Til next time..


TUESDAY
5.21.19

To see the universal and all-pervading Spirit of Truth face to face, one must be able to love the meanest of creation as oneself.

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
SPIN: Bashful +2 (Trainer Road)
Breathing Practice WH (PM - Post Ride)
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

The cycle is visible to you now. You’ve seen so many signs they cannot be ignored. So lets talk today about what is really in your way. Whats in your way of that money you want, that freedom you want, that life. Fear.. as with anyone, wouldn’t you say? Fear of what? What is fear? What is stopping you from making 100x, 1000x on your trading? You know its possible.

I think you have been thinking you had to make some sort of choice right now, and the answer is you don’t. Had things gone differently then, you would’ve been trading from home while running TV. There would have been a different set of circumstances. Quantum leaps are how you just from one reality to another. But you have to fucking commit.

Lesson here is this.. The longer you wait, the more opportunities present themselves. That doesn’t make it any easier. Pick one and jump, you can always right the ship as you go..


Intelligent people tend to care less about the opinions of others, they also enjoy being alone because of great sense of self.

WEDNESDAY
5.22.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
YOGA: Soma @Tula Yoga
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

"Don't put a limit on anything. The more you dream the farther you get."

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, how many times I have to tell you, the answers are in yourself. Stop looking for answers in other people, you know what you know so fucking go with it.


You ain’t gotta stop the waves man…just learn how to surf em’ ….

THURSDAY
5.23.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C1 #44 - Ella

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Living with an open heart is still new. Having these conversations with Her, and an open heart is still extremely new and fucking raw. Its raw man. Trusting yourself is still new. Embracing it, is still new. Accepting your new self. Things become a lot less scary and a lot less of a deal when you say them out loud.. … So thank you for listening to me. I hear you and I see you fully. I know why you feel the way you feel, only because I have felt what you are experiencing, entirely. Its definitely a change, its different. Its fucking awesome and empowering. You will still relate and identity with things, just remember you don’t need to become them, you don’t need to remember them. Let em float in and float out. Feel em, and let them go… You got it man. Freedom Man :)


FRIDAY
5.24.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C2 #27 - Amy K
HIKE: Copper Harbor, MI
RIDE: Copper Harbor, MI
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, as you sit there in meditation, your eyes closed, some thoughts will come floating in..Ya just gotta say, “whoooah man… that ain’t my business and keep on peerin’ out through your 3rd eye, 3rd eye, 3rd eye… 3rd eyeeeee!


SATURDAY
5.25.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
YOGA: Copper Harbor, MI
HIKE: Copper Harbor, MI
RIDE: Copper Harbor, MI
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Yo man! Gigantic dreams come true just as easily as the itty bitty ones. You’re seeing now, you get what you ask for.. Rich dreams come true as easily as poor ones. Friendly dreams come true as easily as lonely ones. And you and I will be together, until the end of time. The end of time brotha!



SUNDAY
5.26.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
YOGA: Copper Harbor, MI
HIKE: Copper Harbor, MI
RIDE: Copper Harbor, MI
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

It’s all about Love. Love of all things, Man.


Black as Night
Nahko & Medicine For the People

Black As The Night
Nahko Bear
Oh whoa oh
Oh whoa

I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'
Out of darkness lion heart pumpin', pumpin', pumpin' pumpin'
Into white light all things runnin', runnin', runnin' runnin'
Who have I been, who am I becomin'? Come in, come in, come in
Deep breathes for a young man learnin', learnin', learnin', learnin'
Take a walk with the cedars hummin', cityscape, pink sunset stunnin'
Every fire kindle burnin', every empty space is fittin'

I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'

I am no master, I know nothin'
I am no master, I know nothin' yeah

I am no master, I know nothin' but I am a servant and I know somethin' yeah
I am no master, I know nothin' definitely still young
Built on hunger so fuckin' stubborn a lot of self-work undone
I am a witness
The life of one who carries all of his secrets in his music, music, music, music oh oh

Oh/No whoa oh
No whoa oh
No whoa
No whoa oh
No whoa

More pages more words to my story, more grace, more meaning unfoldin'
Take a drive rain park cascadia
Feel the warmth in my cold hear radiant
Two shakes and I'm feelin' weightless
Heart aches but its actually painless
Take a vow in the Pale moonlight, moonlight, moonlight
Take a look at myself through my third eye. (third eye, third eye, third eye)
Everything's already alright, always alright, always alright

I'm black as night
I'm black as the night
Black as the night
I'm black as the night
Black as the night with a little bit of moonlight
Black as the night with a little bit of moonlight
I'm black as the night with a little bit of moonlight shining from my center within
Sharp obsidian smooth to the touch I'm a dark little cinnamon man
It's part of my make up, uh-huh, uh-huh
Nevermind the nightmares, always gonna wake up, wake up, wake up

Ah eh
You got the keys
You got the keys
You got the keys
You got the keys
You got the keys but I'll never keep my door locked
You got the keys but I'll never keep my door locked, nah
You got the keys but I'll never keep my door locked you can always come right in
And if my arms are full you can bet your sweet ass I will drop that shit right then
I might be busy uh uh, but I always got some time to surrender to your beauty, beauty, beauty, beauty
Ah ah oh yeah…

Oh/No whoa oh
No whoa oh
No whoa
Oh/No whoa oh
No whoa oh
No whoa

I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin'
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin'
Out of darkness lion heart pumpin', pumpin', pumpin'
Into white light all things runnin', runnin', runnin' Who have I been, who am I becomin'?
Come in, come in, come in
Deep breathes for a young man learnin', learnin', learnin', learnin'
Take a vow in the Pale moonlight, moonlight, moonlight
Take a look at myself through my third eye
Everything's already alright, always alright, always alright

So
I am no master, I know nothin'
I am no master, I know nothin'
I am no master, I know nothin'
But I am a servant and I know somethin' yeah
I am no master, I know nothin'

The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume III

If you are going to heal in a magnificent way, you have to feel magnificent.

MONDAY
5.13.19

Chakra Cleanse (4am)
Breathing Practice WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C2 #23
RIDE: MTB - Leb Hills
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

Dreams come true, that's what they do. The only variable is when.

For the slow approach: Resist. Attach. Insist. Deny. Stop. Second guess. Whine. Argue. Defend. Protest. Cry. Struggle. And ask others, when you know the answer yourself. 

For the quick approach: Visualize. Pretend. Prepare. Dodge. Roll. Serpentine. Do not waver over intentions, but over methods. Show up, even when nothing happens. And give thanks in advance. 

You knew that,
The Universe


TUESDAY
5.14.19

Chakra Cleanse (4am)
Breathing Practice WH (AM)
REST DAY
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

“When I need love from others, or need to give love to others, I'm caught in an unstable situation. Being in love, rather than giving or taking love, is the only thing that provides stability.” - Ram Dass

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Dude, when the fear starts to creep in, the need from control starts to peek around the corner. When that happens, you shut off the flow of Bliss, man. You saw that happen. You felt it drain. The valve shut off. I know you know exactly what I am talking about. Rise above it. Stay elevated. You see the signs and feel it. Just trust the universe. you need is right there in front of you. Believe that. I love you so much, that best better than the orgasm kind. Yea baby, that kind. Get from the day.


WEDNESDAY
5.15.19

Chakra Cleanse + Ego Eradicator (4am)
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
HIKE: Willow River State Park
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

It's always too soon to quit. Time is not a line, but a series of now-points….

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

So I have this idea. I like it. Well, I have a few ideas. okay…I have a lot of ideas. smh. One of my recent favorite’s is to guide / road trip Vision Quests. I would just plan trips and then sell a package price. Go from there… With the idea that by no means are these vacations. I enjoy pushing my body through the ringer doing awesome ass shit outside and in the middle of nowhere all day. Off roading/ jeep roads, camping, hiking, biking, climbing, paddling, and maximizing ever bit of day light hours. Its a lot of fun, and free. outside, its free you know. I choose my own adventure.

Secondly, I was thinking about buying land in various places. Pouring concrete pads for a patio aqnd then either building small tree houses, tiny homes, or putting custom built buses on the property and then renting them out. They could also be used for these vision type trips as a home base place for showers and a bigger kitchen if needed.

Listen man, you need to remember a few things right now..You are feeling a lot. More so than ever have. Don’t hide from it. At the very least, meet me here and you can write down. I can keep my mouth shut when you need it. I know you are focused on your meditation practice but remember how important sleep is. You need it man, that brain and body needs rest to recover and rejuvenate. Thirdly, stay in that place of discomfort, even just a little longer than you think you can. Whether you ease into or have the momentum to push past, this current state of discomfort is not permanent. And lastly, if you are not struggling, you aren’t growing. The most growth will come in the hardest times.

Crazy its’t it. It’s been a while since we’ve met. Hook, line and sinker…got you now. It just took a little time ;) I’m excited for your future. It’s about to get real interesting, isn’t it? You see the numbers. You know the path. Change is happening all around you. I am proud of you..


I AM not another fucking flower to be picked and left to die. I AM wild, difficult to find, and impossible to forget.

THURSDAY
5.16.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C2 #24 - Kim

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

Yoga was fantastic this morning. Probably one of the hardest classes I have taken. I didn’t stop sweating and felt extremely dehydrated by the end of class. It was one of my favorites though. Hardest and favorite are becoming synonymous. Weaknesses being exposed and purging the toxins through sweat and tears. Strengthening and healing. My eyes filled with tears and sweat throughout class to the point I just had to close my eyes. I love it.

In 2006, I was running and growing a small valet company. Later that year, the owners of the valet company sent me to a Rapport Leadership weekend seminar down in Las Vegas. As time passed, I became at odds with the two owners. My acceptance of their bullshit, and the way they viewed and treated people was not okay. But neither was my attitude or behavior. I was living a life indulgence and very little self respect at the time. Luckily, rapport was sort of the wake up call…. My confidence grew initially, but then my ego really took off . Coincidentally, at the same time my interest in trading equities picked up even more. I was unwavering and unwilling to negotiate my trip to Arizona to check out that proprietary trading firm’s office. They initially offered me a bonus to stay, but then said it would be split over the course of year. So, really they just offered me a horseshit raise…. Or did they? I was making 25k a year at the time, and really all I was asking for was 35k a year, plus letting me work my shifts for tips and min wage. With that raise or bonus, that was the number I would’ve been making. Point being, I get what I ask for, even when I don’t realize it. And when I got it, it obviously wasn’t good enough for me, because I didn’t really want it! Ultimately, when I returned home I was fired without warning. My ego took a beating because I didn’t depart on my terms, I wasn’t offered a choice. I was dumped after putting my heart into building that company for over five years. EGO…This was all EGO! It stressed me out. Yet… From there I took the quantum leap to move down to Arizona. Or was the Quantum leap taking off to Chicago for that day trading seminar? Or was it Rapport?

The thing with Rapport, is they didn’t break me or my ego. In fact, what it did do, is help develop my voice and trust in myself. Sure it may be a cult or what ever, I mean doubtful but that’s what I learned. But I didn’t have the tools, guidance or self know at the time to continue taking positive steps forward. Ego grew and took over. Why would a personal development seminar be referred to as a cult anyway? I certainly wouldn’t force someone to go. It sounds like some people have more/less. … They teach you how love yourself. Get over yourself and get what is yours. If you don’t have the voice, the trust, the action, you aren’t going to get what you want.

Listen, if you want to solve all of your problems, be here, in reality, now. Stay right here in the present and feel it. Do not run from it. Do not take the easy road. Recognize that your fears…. they exist only in your past or or in your self manifested future.

As I currently sit, epiphanies are flashing in front of my eyes. The parallels from past through now are slapping me in the face. I am at a juncture where I see the time loop. The lapse, its fucking identical. Too obvious to ignore, there is no way. From the industry, specific events, to the me, to the physical and emotional thoughts and beliefs. Around that time my heart was starting to open and I was beginning to lead with it and then something happened. I was rocked off my high. I’m not sure what it was. I realize that my brain and heart were not working completely coherently then, but they are now. Or at least they have recently began to work together again. Is that why this juncture will be different? I sense the change and see the signs as in the numbers, and I feel as though I am learning so much more, my heart is open but don’t quite see ittttt yet. I guess there is not “it,” its foolish to chases “it.” So what is “it” that I want to see? Some physical material difference? Yea, maybe that’s it. I’m shedding that shit though. So that cannot be “it.” Something is off…

What am I missing? My heart is open. Am I content? I think so? Well, no that isnt true. What are the things that I can change at this juncture? My attitude, yes. How I speak and handle each, yes. There has to be more. Like a completely different choice I feel I need to make.

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. -Anais Nin


Visualize to Materialize

FRIDAY
5.17.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Lion Rock (Trainer Road)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I want to pick up from yesterday. I feel as though my life is on this twelve year cycle. I have been seeing the 12s, the 5s and the 911s. I think that is why I have been seeing the 12s. Does the 911 represent of the end of the 12? My awareness, truth, and love is what I see as different between then and now. Im still missing something

I appreciate everything, the world is so beautiful.


To see the universal and all-pervading spirit of Truth face to face one must be able to love the meanest of creation as oneself
— Mahatma Gandhi

SATURDAY
5.18.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
GYM: Strength Circuit 3X
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

It was a little after midnight and I fell back asleep and then woke up around 5am to the same thoughts… and then it hit me. I forgot how to let go. Let go of circumstance, outcome, expectation, consequence. Letting go is that ultimate contentment. Its the ability to let go of whats in the past, to knowingly create a new and unknown future. Does that even make sense?

If everyone I meet and everything I see is a mirror, then every single moment is a chance to create something new or take a new direction. What happens when you figure out what you were supposed to learn or why you meet someone or something happens? Are the people I am meeting, really the way they are, or they the way they are only because I see them that way. Will it bring me full circle only to realize this is all just a game, twelve years from now or so I will be at the same fork? Because I feel like from here on out, I will recognize every similarity from past through now.

At what point is the past important?

This morning’s sunrise is not defined by last night’s sunset.


SUNDAY
5.19.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C2 #25
Hike: Willow River State Park
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

I believe its in this next level of contentment. The final surrender. Its letting go,  letting go of all expectation, consequence, the need to control the outcome. I believe that i can let go, let go of everything that is impermanent in my world. In fact, I know I can. It isn’t an issue of wanting to or not. Its the ability to, when it comes down to that moment. When I identify something I am not  letting go of, it is an anchor. I cannot fly if I am tied down. I am Nobody, I am nowhere, I am nothing. As Dispenza points out.  Im not saying I have let go of everything, or that every moment I want to. But I certainly have figured out how to. And i figured that out long ago. I stopped letting go when i started to listen to others, especially in how to behave and how i should feel. When you can accept any possibility, you have surrendered. I knew how to do it, and somewhere I lost it.

Perhaps Mother Aya will lead me on the journey to discovering the whys event though ultimately, I dont think it matters. 

In my first experience, I was given the gift of freedom, love, forgiveness, shedding of the shame, the guilt, the burdens carried and my eyes opened to how thing have affected my life. I believe that love is what I am meant to share. How I do that, I suppose I start with myself. Loving myself and as you said, TRUST. TRU-st, TRU-th, is the trust in the universe, in myself, thats where it starts. I have not trusted the voice inside. I have not trusted myself or my gut. I have not trusted the universe to give me the outcome that I am ready for, the one that i need. Not the outcome that I think that I want, the outcome that has been skewed with bullshit. That is fucking surrender. Giving it your all and then saying fuck - it. what ever happens, happens. How have i not fully embraced this before, i dont know. To another point, when I live free, i give others the choice to do the same. I empower them to make the choice whether or not I should be in their life. Just as being vulnerable. Freedom is vulnerability. I keep wondering how I am supposed to live now. What am I supposed to do. I have been over thinking over analyzing, and I think i just need to continue to share, to be open to all possibilities and whatever. To just live CONTENT. 

Love is not finite. The only love tank is the love tank we fill ourselves, and when that is free flowing we can give freely to others around us. I believe it is possible to be connected to that source, infinitely.  I just believe it takes work and dedication. This seeking of completion in others have people searching and searching and searching for this love in other people. I think this is the largest and most noticeable difference in people that I now see.

There will be two kinds of people here, those that live in love and those that live in fear/hate/etc. I do not believe in monogamy or even the normal societal relationships that we have come to romanticize because they put a condition on love. Im interested to hear a little more on the sex/gender topics by Sethikus, because i know my views on them are pretty extreme and probably pretty unique.  Love is not conditional. Love is not finite. Love is all accepting. There is only a shortage in LOVE when you disconnect from the source. That is you. That is Me.  I fucking love every single person on this planet, the good and the bad, because every single human is my brother and sister. The light and the dark. The dark surrounds me and I glad that it has because the light shines that much brighter. 

We can be physical and in bliss. That i do believe. I am a mother fucking warrior of light. This I know that for certain. Yes there are and have been dark forces at work, that doesnt mean to me, that I need to settle and lower my vibration to fight. I believe the real fight is in giving more love. I dont believe that is what I have been doing. I am focusing on changing that. 

There are 7 billion realities happening currently here on earth, at the MINIMUM, at the same time. This world is mine. It is yours. Every single belief, thought, etc that I see in some one or some thing is a COMPLETE reflection, a complete mirror. not just partially, this is not a concept i fully grasped. It doesn't matter negative or positive. For instance, a teacher in a vinyasa class, I hear and recognize the strength, the confidence, the discipline in her voice and in her presence but it is not her that i see or hear, it is that aspect of myself that I see in her. You could pick anyone, and what ever it is that I feel towards them (positive or negative), it has nothing to do with them, at all. Kids especially, are the biggest MIRRORS. Even that slightest big of negative feeling, thought or judgement is something that I recognize in myself whether I completely realize at the moment or not. It would take an immense amount of self awareness to recognize it every time it happens, so I just say fuck it and try. Start recognizing nothing but the beauty, the love, the strength, the power.

Thats how you make your ego your fucking bitch to wear around your neck. You teach the ego to live in love. To come at everything from a place of compassion because they (ppl) are doing the same, they just havent woken up to it. They havent woken up to the idea of the mirror. . This whole world is just a complete reflection of my thoughts, of my feelings. There are plenty of answers in others, but not in the way that I was seeking. Wowza

Practice not-doing, and everything will fall into place.


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.



The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume II

The only energy you can attract is the energy you are in harmonious vibration with. Change your perception. Change your results.

MONDAY
5.6.19

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
Corepower Yoga: C2 #20
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

Never waste valuable time, or mental peace of mind, on the affairs of others—that is too high a price to pay.


TUESDAY
5.7.19

Breathing Practice WH (AM)
Gym: Strength Circuit 3x
Corepower Yoga: C2 #21 - Kate C
Breathing Practice WH (PM)

If you feel that you have made a mistake, you don't try to undo the past or the present, but you just accept where you are and work from there.


WEDNESDAY
5.8.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Ride: Andrews +1 (TrainerRoad)
Breathing Practice: WH (Midday)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

The Corner of 8th & Insanity

5.8.19

Could it be the answers are already in your head. You have been feeling disconnected from the source this past week or so and it was growing. Outside influences knocked you down a notch. How humbling and frustrating! I know you want to get back, and today…it looks as though you took that step in the right direction. You know exactly what I am talking about. To start, we’re having this conversation…and you are writing it down. But that’s not what I am talking about. You’ve spoken about it. Grasping. Inability or unwillingness to let go. You feel it too, in your lats, hips and knees. You know this place. Old thought patterns, old behaviors, but you are catching yourself…pretty damn close to every time. ….Karma. the hell you create in your own mind. Those times when judgement screams the loudest, so loud you even verbalize it…You are speaking to yourself. You are recognizing the truth in yourself, not that them. They’re on their path, and dealing with what they are dealing with at this moment in time. You have completely looked in the mirror and seen your-self.

What have you been grasping at? Validation, approval, guidance, a crutch, what the fuck for? I get it, that connection is Bliss. You know what is real. You know what you experienced…continue to experience every day, so what are you fighting?


THURSDAY
5.9.19

REST DAY

A father is neither an anchor to hold us back, nor a sail to take us there, but a guiding light whose love shows us the way.


FRIDAY
5.10.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
GYM: Stability Circuit 3X
CPY: C2 #22 - Victoria
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


The Corner of 8th & Insanity

5.10.19

Open Heart. You would’t have had these moments, if you heart wasn’t open. You feel again. You feel how you others felt, as you treated them. You feel, what you feel, when you are treated that way in return. Active listening…You know what means now. It clicked. I am happy for you. I am happy that you realized it.


SATURDAY
5.11.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: MTB - Lebanon Hills
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SUNDAY
5.12.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Lake Loop
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)

My own personal policy as the Universe, is to only do those things that I want to do, with whom I want to do them. That's part of the reason I'm always hanging around you. - The Universe


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


The Samadhi Chronicles: Volume I

It’s time we had that little talk, Nick .
You know, about life, how it started, and where it might go...
First, there were a few thoughts.
Then, there were a few things.
Yeah, that’s what we said, “Wow!” But after eons and eons the novelty wore off because absolutely nothing ever changed.
Until there were new thoughts.
Get the picture?
— The Universe

MONDAY
4.29.19

Breathing Practice WH AM
Gym: Strength Circuit 3x
Corepower Yoga: C2 #18
Breathing Practice WH PM

We generally change ourselves for one of two reasons: inspiration or desperation." - Jim Rohn


TUESDAY
4.30.19

Breathing Practice WH: AM
Corepower Yoga: C1 #42
Breathing Practice WH: PM




WEDNESDAY
5.1.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Gym: Strength Circuit 3X
Corepower Yoga C1 #43
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


THURSDAY
5.2.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
REST DAY
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


FRIDAY
5.3.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: The Owl +2 (TrainerRoad)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SATURDAY
5.4.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
RIDE: Xalibu +3 (TrainerRoad)
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


SUNDAY
5.5.19

Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Mountain Bike: Lebanon Hills
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)


The Corner of 8th & Insanity
3.31.19


  I was extremely nervous for the Round Robin on March 31st.  As a class we were supposed to get together and practice teach that morning outside at a nearby park, however the weather turned cold and everyone bailed. I needed that practice. I was not prepared for class whatsoever and for whatever reason I decided to hop on my stationary bike and spin for an hour and half. I have been practicing Wim’ Hoff’s breathing which isn’t anything new or unique, just a different name or spin on it. Either way, it has really helped in slowing my brain down, relaxing and “meditating"… or not thinking I guess.

                After getting off the bike, I put my CPY book away and didn’t open it again. I already knew the material. I didn’t see a point in beating this dead horse and studying anymore. I finally said fuck it, I’ll just lay down and breathe and then head to class. How bad could it be..

                I started to breathe, and it felt good. Something was little different though. I was keeping my ankles, hips, shoulders, head and back of my hands grounded (pinned). My spine ebbed and flowed like a centipede as I would breathe in and then out. Deep breathes in, and just opening the mouth for a light exhale. The pressure built from inhaling deep naturally pushed that breath out so I never fully exhaled. Initially breathing into my belly, and then up through my ribs and chest and finally into my head.  I felt the oxygen high, my body started to float in the first round of breathing. I couldn’t feel my arms, my legs, my body. Tears were starting to well in my eyes. Dammit they are distracting.

                Round 2… My body was moving similar to the first but every time I open my mouth exhaled, I would relax even more. I sunk into the mat that much more. It felt as if it earth was filling in. As that happened my energy zipped up and left through my top of my head….began to fly. What I think I now i  understand as my soul, it left my body and began to fly with my head/face leading the way. My legs and arms stretched back similar to laying down in a cobra pose with airplaned arms. I was flying through this tunnel, it was black and colorful. The colors were not that of your normal red blue yellow green. There were real colors. It was magic. My eye became real eyes.  I could feel this pulse, the beat, the rhythm of this tunnel. I was being spoken to via feeling and it was like my brain could translate the feeling into what it meant. Soon, I could myself syncing and beating at that same time or frequency. It was out of control. My heart was beating at that rhythm. Somehow, I knew it was beating red, but I couldn’t see it. Or it was I thought the color red looked like. Then out of nowhere (I completely let go), my veins extended from my heart to the walls of the tunnel and connected. I felt another rainbow of emotions. Every single possible thing you could feel, I felt. I think or know I guess? Epiphany after epiphany flashed before me, feeling like I was learning and living a thousand lives at once. I felt this wave of forgiveness. This wave of all encompassing, non judging, Unconditional love. This feeling of loving understanding. Love is the only English word we have. Agape maybe?.. My heart fucking exploded in light as did my head. This ultimate self love feeling, it was enough. It was absolutely self love. It was filling. It was, an ahaha everything at every moment in my life made sense and why and what I was supposed to learn and connect. There were all these parallels in thought.  And that, ah you were right! You should have listened to yourself. This answer of you it is in you, not others acceptance or approval. Epiphany after epiphany after epiphany, new levels and layers of understanding concepts.

                I came back to my body violently as I needed oxygen, but I didn’t want to let it go, I couldn’t let go. There was pool of tears underneath my head and streaming down my face. I was awake and breathing but still connected some how. The overwhelming feeling was still there. So I started heavy breathing again.  I kept breathing, and kept feeling, and I kept flying, I held my breath, I let go.  I didn’t know what was going to come next, but it was crazy more forgiveness, understanding. It was a new level of understanding and awareness. It wasn’t anything new or new information. It was just epiphany after epiphany, everything was new, and everything had new meaning and a new understanding. This understanding went from pain, sadness, back  to understanding, and then to smiling through my eyes, my mouth, my whole chest felt like a smile. All I could say was or think was thank you. fuck, thank you for this. thank you, thank you thank you. I was happy.

I have never been more uncomfortable than I have been in a yoga studio or class. I feel exposed and transparent. To the extent, last week was the first time I looked at myself in the mirror during a yoga class. Prior to that, I would find a wood floor corner and my eyes wouldn’t leave it the entire class. Even if I didn’t know a pose, I was mortified to look around and see what others were doing. I think that is why I was supposed to join teacher training. Soul said, lets expedite this lesson…  My ego has this way of creating stories and lies in my head to justify a feeling I think. Or If I felt something, my ego would make up the story to fit that. Even if they didn’t associate at all! Since that happened, I have continued to practice breathing and meditating and have gone to some far out places in the universe that is just too much too talk about.

My brain is hyper aware or my body is too. Every 10-15 minutes my brain is realizing or remembers or connecting something things are going off. My mouth cannot speak as fast as my brain has been moving. It has been exhausting and energizing at the same time. I have had several conversations with people that are telling me what is possible and what is out there and I knew it all a long, my entire life there was more. This is what life is. I cant talk about that feeling without smiling. and feeling it. it gives me Goosebumps every time. And now in shivasana in every yoga class, I have to be careful. If I start to breathe this way and let go, Im not sure if I am coming back. or snoring…

If you can come at everything from this place of appreciation, love, and you are open...you fill yourself energetically with love and strength from everywhere around you. Beauty is everywhere. A woman for instance... Too look at a woman I find as beautiful. If I lust for that beauty, it comes from s selfish place. It is artificially fills me like an energy drink or coffee. If I can appreciate her beauty for what it is, it would be impossible not to be in a state of gratitude...because that is what appreciation is. thankfulness, love. Real love. Does that make sense?  We are light and energy. I think that everyone’s experience may be different when it comes to this thing. But, the end, the feeling of completeness, healed, love, self love, selfless love, is universal. Soul is that mind and heart connection. But again, these English words we are speaking do not even make sense on this physical level of earth. 

Thats the jist of my experience, minus a lot of the revelations and epiphanies…

Wisdom comes from doing the work. Inner work. A willingness to work hard yields the sweetest fruit.
— Kate

LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Week 21 Schedule #RUN #YOGA #MTB

Your secret blessing, is that no matter where you go in time and space, you only ever have to be yourself - as courageous, vulnerable, bold, or afraid as you may feel - to find yourself amongst friends. So loved...
— The Universe

MONDAY
REST DAY


TUESDAY
60 MIN RUN/ CARDIO 2


WEDNESDAY
STABILITY CIRCUIT

Single Leg Reverse Band Turns (Red Band) - 3x12/Side

36in Lateral Jumps 3x15/side = 30

Saturday Night Fever Shoulder Raises 3x15/Arm @20lbs

Bench/ Single Leg Hip Raise 3x12/Leg

Band Swims Both forward & Back 3x (15 forwards & 15 backwards per side )

High Plank Static Holds 3x (90sec, 2min, 2.5min)

Single Leg, Cable pull downs (triceps) - 3x12/side @55lbs

Single Leg Around the Worlds (Tap @ 12, 2,4,6) 10/side - 3x


THURSDAY
POWER CIRCUIT

Jumping Lunges 3x25/Leg

Reverse Pull ups - 3x12

Pylometric Push ups 3x15

Jump Squats 3x25

Medicine Ball From Chest to Wall Simulating Push ups - 3x30 @15lbs

Medicine Ball Side Tosses - 3x20/side @15lbs

Medicine Ball Slams 3x20 @15lbs


FRIDAY
REST DAY


SATURDAY
60 Min RUN/ CARDIO 2 (INTERVALS)


SUNDAY
RIDE/ CARDIO 1


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Week 20 Schedule #YOGA #MTB #RUN

Simply imagine happiness, your own happiness. Feel the smile stretching across your face, notice the lightness in your step, hear the sparkle in your voice, and all things, material and spiritual, will soon fall into place. Happy today!
— The Universe

MONDAY
STABILITY CIRCUIT

Single Leg Reverse Band Turns (Red Band) - 3x12/Side

36in Lateral Jumps 3x15/side = 30

Saturday Night Fever Shoulder Raises 3x15/Arm @20lbs

Bench/ Single Leg Hip Raise 3x12/Leg

Band Swims Both forward & Back 3x (15 forwards & 15 backwards per side )

High Plank Static Holds 3x (90sec, 2min, 2.5min)

Single Leg, Cable pull downs (triceps) - 3x12/side @55lbs

Single Leg Around the Worlds (Tap @ 12, 2,4,6) 10/side - 3x


TUESDAY
POWER CIRCUIT

Jumping Lunges 3x25/Leg

Reverse Pull ups - 3x12

Pylometric Push ups 3x15

Jump Squats 3x25

Medicine Ball From Chest to Wall Simulating Push ups - 3x30 @15lbs

Medicine Ball Side Tosses - 3x20/side @15lbs

Medicine Ball Slams 3x20 @15lbs


WEDNESDAY
REST DAY


THURSDAY
POWER CIRCUIT

Jumping Lunges 3x25/Leg

Reverse Pull ups - 3x12

Pylometric Push ups 3x15

Jump Squats 3x25

Medicine Ball From Chest to Wall Simulating Push ups - 3x30 @15lbs

Medicine Ball Side Tosses - 3x20/side @15lbs

Medicine Ball Slams 3x20 @15lbs


FRIDAY
STABILITY CIRCUIT

Single Leg Reverse Band Turns (Red Band) - 3x12/Side

36in Lateral Jumps 3x15/side = 30

Saturday Night Fever Shoulder Raises 3x15/Arm @20lbs

Bench/ Single Leg Hip Raise 3x12/Leg

Band Swims Both forward & Back 3x (15 forwards & 15 backwards per side )

High Plank Static Holds 3x (90sec, 2min, 2.5min)

Single Leg, Cable pull downs (triceps) - 3x12/side @55lbs

Single Leg Around the Worlds (Tap @ 12, 2,4,6) 10/side - 3x


SATURDAY
RUN/ CARDIO 2


SUNDAY
RIDE/ CARDIO 1


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS