“Nick - The greater the emotional pain, the greater the desire had been to learn the most, fast. ”
MONDAY
5.20.19
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Core Power Yoga: C2 #26 - Ellen
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You can try to become happy by controlling your environment, or by cultivating quietude/gratitude in your mind…. Work on your mind ;)
The Corner of 8th & Insanity
Yin and the yang, in relationship. Masculine and feminine forces. Polarity. We need harmonized balance in all the things. You just cant associate masculine with man and feminine with woman. Yes, each sex will posses more than one or the other. And together, they bring balance (not completion), i think thats point of relationship. I think of feminine force is like wild, emotional and crazy (in good way). In relationship, that energy will naturally flow to where the dude is the weakest. But if dude is strong and balanced he can transmute or just direct it, guide it and let it flow. Thats living in love.
I see that in our marriage big time, at least when I'm able to step back. Where there is no balance, areas we are too like, there is struggle.
Slow down man, take some time to breathe. Remember the mirror. The pressure that is building, the sense of urgency is unnecessary and taking you out of the present.
The reality of it all, is that its all a test. She is testing your love, your strength. Her energy is flowing to where you are weakest. Do not wish for easier circumstances, ever. I know that you don’t, Im just making that clear. Her moods are a reflection of you and your ability to penetrate her with your love.
You know.. relationship, intimacy, partnership is about serving each other in growth and love. By taking the two, you are able to better serve each other than you can serve yourself. That is what intimacy & vulnerability are about. The best thing you can do for her, the best gift you can give is to open her heart when it is closed. Your heart is open, you know that without a doubt. I’m rollin on the floor laughin, cause you know how true that is right now..
You are man, you are masculine and the ability you have is to reign down and penetrate, with a lightening bolt of love… That flash bang can brighten up those dark moods in ways that the feminine cannot on its own. Get her out of her head, man. She deserves it.
The cycle of the feminine mood is like all cycles, it never ends. Her mood… her heart is either opening in easy moments or closing in the difficult moments. Dance with it. You’ve realized how easy it has been in the past to knock you off your rocker. You are aware of it now, so don’t let it go. Think about it. If life is happening for you, not to you…you can look at every moment with her as a challenge to show your love and dance in the amusement of it all.
In those challenging moments, those challenging times, dance, and remain in that love. Humor, smile and when hearts are open…then open the mouth and speak. Touch her, hold her, kiss her.
She could do this herself, yes, but if she could grow more without you…she wouldn’t need you. Read that again. The cycle will go on and on. The weather changes as often as the moods. I believe you are doing the work that needs to be done. Keep at it. All you can do is continually develop your skills in serving with love.
And remember, by tolerating, by settling, resentment builds towards each other. You don’t need to talk about it. Just move her body with yours. Open her heart, and don’t ever stop.
And hey.. When you’ve tried it all…creative, humorous, and powerful ways of loving there is nothing left to do but relax and let go without any kind of resentment. The skills just may not be there or perhaps she is not willing to receive your gifts. But you will not ever know, until you’ve given it your all.
Give yourself credit for how far you’ve come and what you have accomplished. You are humble and kind, the people that are around you know, understand and realize how passionate you are about your dreams…the love you have to give.. the love you have to share. You have overcome a lot to be where you are at today. Trust that you are on the right path. Your inner self is guiding you exactly where you are supposed be, man Seriously, fucking trust that! ... I love you man. Til next time..
TUESDAY
5.21.19
To see the universal and all-pervading Spirit of Truth face to face, one must be able to love the meanest of creation as oneself.
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SPIN: Bashful +2 (Trainer Road)
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The Corner of 8th & Insanity
The cycle is visible to you now. You’ve seen so many signs they cannot be ignored. So lets talk today about what is really in your way. Whats in your way of that money you want, that freedom you want, that life. Fear.. as with anyone, wouldn’t you say? Fear of what? What is fear? What is stopping you from making 100x, 1000x on your trading? You know its possible.
I think you have been thinking you had to make some sort of choice right now, and the answer is you don’t. Had things gone differently then, you would’ve been trading from home while running TV. There would have been a different set of circumstances. Quantum leaps are how you just from one reality to another. But you have to fucking commit.
Lesson here is this.. The longer you wait, the more opportunities present themselves. That doesn’t make it any easier. Pick one and jump, you can always right the ship as you go..
Intelligent people tend to care less about the opinions of others, they also enjoy being alone because of great sense of self.
WEDNESDAY
5.22.19
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YOGA: Soma @Tula Yoga
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"Don't put a limit on anything. The more you dream the farther you get."
The Corner of 8th & Insanity
Dude, how many times I have to tell you, the answers are in yourself. Stop looking for answers in other people, you know what you know so fucking go with it.
You ain’t gotta stop the waves man…just learn how to surf em’ ….
THURSDAY
5.23.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C1 #44 - Ella
The Corner of 8th & Insanity
Living with an open heart is still new. Having these conversations with Her, and an open heart is still extremely new and fucking raw. Its raw man. Trusting yourself is still new. Embracing it, is still new. Accepting your new self. Things become a lot less scary and a lot less of a deal when you say them out loud.. … So thank you for listening to me. I hear you and I see you fully. I know why you feel the way you feel, only because I have felt what you are experiencing, entirely. Its definitely a change, its different. Its fucking awesome and empowering. You will still relate and identity with things, just remember you don’t need to become them, you don’t need to remember them. Let em float in and float out. Feel em, and let them go… You got it man. Freedom Man :)
FRIDAY
5.24.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
Core Power Yoga: C2 #27 - Amy K
HIKE: Copper Harbor, MI
RIDE: Copper Harbor, MI
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The Corner of 8th & Insanity
Dude, as you sit there in meditation, your eyes closed, some thoughts will come floating in..Ya just gotta say, “whoooah man… that ain’t my business and keep on peerin’ out through your 3rd eye, 3rd eye, 3rd eye… 3rd eyeeeee!
SATURDAY
5.25.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
YOGA: Copper Harbor, MI
HIKE: Copper Harbor, MI
RIDE: Copper Harbor, MI
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)
The Corner of 8th & Insanity
Yo man! Gigantic dreams come true just as easily as the itty bitty ones. You’re seeing now, you get what you ask for.. Rich dreams come true as easily as poor ones. Friendly dreams come true as easily as lonely ones. And you and I will be together, until the end of time. The end of time brotha!
SUNDAY
5.26.19
Breathing Practice: WH (AM)
YOGA: Copper Harbor, MI
HIKE: Copper Harbor, MI
RIDE: Copper Harbor, MI
Breathing Practice: WH (PM)
The Corner of 8th & Insanity
It’s all about Love. Love of all things, Man.
Black as Night
Nahko & Medicine For the People
Black As The Night
Nahko Bear
Oh whoa oh
Oh whoa
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'
Out of darkness lion heart pumpin', pumpin', pumpin' pumpin'
Into white light all things runnin', runnin', runnin' runnin'
Who have I been, who am I becomin'? Come in, come in, come in
Deep breathes for a young man learnin', learnin', learnin', learnin'
Take a walk with the cedars hummin', cityscape, pink sunset stunnin'
Every fire kindle burnin', every empty space is fittin'
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin' comin'
I am no master, I know nothin'
I am no master, I know nothin' yeah
I am no master, I know nothin' but I am a servant and I know somethin' yeah
I am no master, I know nothin' definitely still young
Built on hunger so fuckin' stubborn a lot of self-work undone
I am a witness
The life of one who carries all of his secrets in his music, music, music, music oh oh
Oh/No whoa oh
No whoa oh
No whoa
No whoa oh
No whoa
More pages more words to my story, more grace, more meaning unfoldin'
Take a drive rain park cascadia
Feel the warmth in my cold hear radiant
Two shakes and I'm feelin' weightless
Heart aches but its actually painless
Take a vow in the Pale moonlight, moonlight, moonlight
Take a look at myself through my third eye. (third eye, third eye, third eye)
Everything's already alright, always alright, always alright
I'm black as night
I'm black as the night
Black as the night
I'm black as the night
Black as the night with a little bit of moonlight
Black as the night with a little bit of moonlight
I'm black as the night with a little bit of moonlight shining from my center within
Sharp obsidian smooth to the touch I'm a dark little cinnamon man
It's part of my make up, uh-huh, uh-huh
Nevermind the nightmares, always gonna wake up, wake up, wake up
Ah eh
You got the keys
You got the keys
You got the keys
You got the keys
You got the keys but I'll never keep my door locked
You got the keys but I'll never keep my door locked, nah
You got the keys but I'll never keep my door locked you can always come right in
And if my arms are full you can bet your sweet ass I will drop that shit right then
I might be busy uh uh, but I always got some time to surrender to your beauty, beauty, beauty, beauty
Ah ah oh yeah…
Oh/No whoa oh
No whoa oh
No whoa
Oh/No whoa oh
No whoa oh
No whoa
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin'
I believe in the good things comin', comin', comin'
Out of darkness lion heart pumpin', pumpin', pumpin'
Into white light all things runnin', runnin', runnin' Who have I been, who am I becomin'?
Come in, come in, come in
Deep breathes for a young man learnin', learnin', learnin', learnin'
Take a vow in the Pale moonlight, moonlight, moonlight
Take a look at myself through my third eye
Everything's already alright, always alright, always alright
So
I am no master, I know nothin'
I am no master, I know nothin'
I am no master, I know nothin'
But I am a servant and I know somethin' yeah
I am no master, I know nothin'